#urinnermuse

I’ll start this by saying I’ve been there, I’ve been there multiple times actually and because I’ve been there I tell you with absolute certainty, it’s all you.

I could go on multiple storytimes about how I’d always want validation from my best friend or people around me but if I did, we’d be here for the whole year.

This year, I was very discouraged, my self concept was absolute trash when it came to manifestation and my life and because of that, I consistently manifested bad outcomes. I don’t like saying that, but it’s actually what happened to me, but it’s not what’s gonna happen to you.

Even though I had success stories, I graduated university when all odds were against me, I did manage to sabotage myself when it came to continuing my studies, where to live, love life, etc.

I realized at some point, I was denying myself of everything I wanted and everything I had because I wasn’t getting the validation I wanted from a person who’s opinions I valued so much, and in turn I realized, sure, I might not be looking for validation from Twitter posts or tumblr posts/asks, but I was doing the exact same thing with my then best friend. Identifying this made me realize, I really didn’t believe it was all me, I don’t truly think I was limitless cause I kept asking for their validation and not my own.

It’s been so freeing realizing what was “delaying” me and I honestly don’t believe in delays, I also don’t necessarily believe in divine timing but I do think I needed this to finally step into my best self, my innermuse

Don’t limit yourself, don’t look for your manifestation, don’t beg the universe and/or people for your manifestations. Believe me when I say, it’s all you but this is where self concept plays a part, my self concept was so bad I started searching for flaws in everything, started applying logic to every aspect of my life as if I didn’t know how this actually worked.

Self concept isn’t needed, but I do swear by it. Embrace who you are and what you’re capable of, saturate if that’s what you like, visualize, affirm, persist.

I know for a fact all I desire, all I want and all I envision for myself has happened, there’s no dangers I face, I am secure in myself and in my abilities.

I discovered the law years ago, I’d say 2020, to be exact.

I realized it was real when I wrote a letter and left it in a drawer and never looked back. 6 months later, everything I had written, no matter how impossible it seemed, had materialized.

From then on, I started my journey into discovering the law of attraction (jumpscare😖) and then, finally, the law of assumption.

I’ve had so many success stories that they actually don’t even seem that important at this point, o can’t even remember half of them. But, as much as I’ve had so many success stories, I mentioned graduating uni, I got random money, manifested trips, manifested a friend too (I had a friend crush on this girl and we’re besties now), I’ve also had “fails” and I know exactly why I had them. Living a life where I was actually happy in every aspect of my life, not just content, scared me…actually, it terrified me, lowkey still does.

This year tho, after everything I’ve been through, I realized I’ve had enough, I really have. I can’t be living like this anymore, I can’t be looking at myself and feeling dejected, I’m not a victim, I refused to be one, I refused to look at my circumstances and think or feel doomed, I’m not, on the contrary, I’m tremendously blessed. I have achieved so much, I have so much and because of this all, I KNOW I can have more, I KNOW I am more.

So yes, rejection saved me, cause no matter how many Taylor Tookes videos I watched, no matter how many Sammy Ingram videos I watched or Erik videos I watched, they wouldn’t save me, only I would save myself, I needed to save myself from myself, from my sabotage.

Since then, I’ve been living a life where I can say will only get better, life smiles at me and I smile back, the birds chirp like they’re speaking to me, I float, I don’t walk. Life feels like a fairytale, I had an unfavorable circumstance show up (I made it exist, lol) but guess what?? I panicked for 30 minutes, that’s all I allowed from myself because I know the law, it’s universal. I affirmed Saturday and Sunday, didn’t obsess over it either and on Monday I got my desired email. All my desires are for next year, but I have this insane conviction and confidence that I am living my materialized manifestations, I know I am.

Stop cutting yourself short, you’re worthy and capable of all of your desires, be it a celeb SP or a million euros.

Ok so, picture this, it’s Christmas night, you sense something weird with your puppy, she had taken a bath a few days prior and she’s been acting very normal. You remove her collar that she came with and you see a horrible wound. The wound was so scary looking guys, even had a bad odor at that point. In no way would I have expected this to happen to her when she seemed fine and this was a trusted place.

At this point my sister and I are panicking, we don’t really know exactly how long she’s had this for and as much as she had been behaving normally, our brains went to horrible scenarios.

This, until I remembered. I know the law. I think I must have panicked for like 45 minutes, doomscrolling on google, seeing everything that could go wrong. I started affirming, my heart was still racing, I was pacing back and forth but I started affirming, hard, to calm my brain and put my thoughts to rest. We were longing for vets that would be open on the 26th and we couldn’t find any. That didn’t faze me, I knew we would, I was affirming for a reason, she’d be fine and she’d be seen by a vet early next day. This wasn’t up for discussion, I persisted in the fact she’d be fine and we’d find a vet. We did. We found two.

As we’re on our way to the vet, we see a newly opened vet literally a block or two away from us, OPEN. So we just stopped there, he looked at our sweet baby and diagnosed her so fast, gave her her treatment and we bought a few meds for her. Nothing too serious, she’d be ok if she took her meds.

She reacted horribly to all her medication, so once again, here I go affirming, she stopped taking her meds two days into this and I started affirming she didn’t need it to heal. By the 1st of January my sweet baby was 90% healed.

No one needs to understand why you want what you want, it’s not their business. Let them think you’re crazy and pop up with all you’ve ever wanted. Don’t limit yourself because of anyone else’s beliefs, we’re programmed to be slaves to the system.

First day of 2026, no more dwelling on 2025 or whatever “didn’t happen”. Actually throw those thoughts away, we’re not doing that this year. You’ve already manifested everything you wanted in 2026, that’s a given, stop getting in your way.

“But I don’t see it” how do you expect to see it? Literally at 1 am I had people saying that this year would be the same as all other, not in a positive way, and I know many have the same thoughts, but I now asks you this, how do you expect to live out your true life, your true desires, if you continuously have these beliefs and these thoughts? Flipping your thoughts might seem hard at first, I know. It feels good in a weird way to really focus on your pain, to focus on the fact you “don’t have it” but you’re not helping yourself.

No more victim mentality, you’re the boss here, you call all the shots. 2026 is exactly what you expect it to be. You have the SP, celebrity or non celebrity, you moved to that country/city you wanted to, you got into that uni, you got that amazing friend group, you got the job, you’re a model now, you’re an actress, you’re making 6 figures, shit, you’re making 8. Your life is amazing, you’re living the life of your dreams and you’re not competing with anyone. Rid yourself of competition and comparison and focus on you having all that you want, that’s the only thing that should matter. This goes for all of us, step into your power, finally allow yourself to experience greatness, don’t accept scraps, you’re much better than that, you know better than that.

Manifestation is really not hard, I’m currently saturating while watching it’s always sunny in Philadelphia, I promise you it’s supposed to be fun.