#uraynuke

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I kept quiet about it for a long time. There's a few reasons for that.

One, among my friends, it was just this kind of known quantity kind of thing. I didn't need to advertise it, so I didn't. Everybody who knew me, knew.

Two, I haven't been down in the trenches with SAGE in over ten years. I let my baby go to grow up all on its own a very long time ago and to some degree it feels weird being like "yeah, I'm the SAGE guy."

Three is a bit more personal, and is generally just related to things like self-confidence and ego and stuff like that. Many years ago I vowed to try and stave off egotism in my life as much as I could. I saw ego as poison.

So I spent a significant portion of my life going out of my way to never toot my own horn too loudly. I let myself become more shy.

But it turns out... too much of that is also destructive. Especially when you're thrust into a situation where "being a big deal" suddenly becomes very important to your well being. It's been on my mind a lot since my Mom died (sorry if this is the first you're hearing of it) but I let myself get so lazy when I lived with her.

I am not doing well for myself right now to be clear, but I'm doing a lot better than I did when she was still alive, and I'm doing a little better this year than last year. I could have had so much more if I actually had, like, discipline and took it this seriously years ago. I have so much catching up to do when it comes to building an audience because I let myself get into a very non-productive, toxic cycle of just not doing very much, or doing things in such a way that I became burnt out very easily (the latter of which is still true).

I realized some of that when she was still alive, which is why when some people came knocking on my door to interview me over my legacy with SAGE, I would often dump huge volumes of text on them about it.

Walk Cycles™:

Oh What's This Ask Here I Wonder Who Sent This

Oh

Cold, I don't know how to explain this to you even MORE clearly but I am N O T Yuri™! you'll get your salty, tantalizingly rotten meat of a Yuri™ when I say so - and NOT any moment BEFORE!

think about the tragedy, dear. and the sales. SO MANY sales!! and the never-ending torrent of blood that spills~!

...and me, obviously! your best friend~!

pick up that pen. now. you know what symbol to draw.