#ups&downs

Wow, I haven't logged in here for so long - It’s been nearly two years. These two years, as same as my last post, have been full of ups and downs. When I look back at what I typed a couple years ago, “Oh gosh, this girl is being so pathetic!” 

Well I still face ups and downs these two years, they’re even more significant, but I made them through - one by one slowly, and have become a stronger person after all :) God has never left me but He continues to train me up and to equip me for His greater purpose with all these experiences. And I am thankful for all that I have experienced - both the goods and the uglies. 

What made the difference? 

I cling onto Him ever more than I ever am, I rely on Him more, I seek Him more. 

I’m thankful for who He made me to be now, I’m thankful for Jesus who died on the Cross for me.

“Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. perseverance, character; and character, hope.” (Romans 5:1-5)

I’m Good. I Have My Days Like Everyone Else.

But Overall, I’m Doing Okay 😊 Thank You @donkeydick16 🙏

I am very close to believing that for every amount of happiness, there’s an equal amount of sadness. Today I got the key to my new unit but hours after, I saw my fishes dying in front of my eyes. All I can do is sit and watch sober how life drains out of those small creatures who’ve I cared for for the past few weeks. Only now that I am starting to embrace that maybe they have chances on longer life is the moment that fate decides to take them away from me. It hurts to know that I’ve tried yet nothing good came out of it.