Dear God It's hard for me to rest when everything inside beats so fast It's hard for me to accept love when all I've ever known are heart attacks And heart failures, cardiac arrest, you see I'm not used to being healthy Just making sure everyone thinks I am, but who am I? I always ask myself the question, why this fearful heart can't accept your reckless invitations And maybe I've seen too many brave hearts get executed and I'm afraid to be next Got all this pain locked inside but I don't know how to open up my chest So just leave me to myself 'cuz it hurts to get cut Except every time that happens, I self-destruct I lie, I hate, I blame, hurt everyone I love Like what's wrong with me God? Am I allergic to love? Your love? Please help me to receive it like medicine for this low-grade fever 'Cuz I'm so tired of feeling sick and tired Out of control like a soul that would never be treated But I heard you love healing broken things If I step back and surrender all the pieces And you promised to give me something whole in return if all I had to give was a few mustard seeds and A little bit of faith A little bit of hope A little bit of trust to have to believe that's enough A little bit of faith A little bit of hope A little bit of trust to have to believe that's enough For You to start also for You to finish And I'll get out of the way while You handle Your business I'll lose control while You hold up my senses Give you all and You take away my defenses So God, I'm running back to the start I won't run anymore You have my heart Up from the ashes God You are making something beautiful For You have won my heart And I'm no longer ruined I have been ransomed by Your jealous love 📸pursuedbyhismajesty Poem by: Michael Nelder #upfromtheashes #alittlebitof #faithhopelove #likeasoulthatwouldneverbetreated (at Shell Business Service Centre)
