#unstableprocess

Delude in thin air, Sun no longer shining on hair, Fragnance of bed sheets, And no nosebleeds.

To not be, To not see, To not hear, To not smell, To not feel, To not be real.

If not exists, It can't resist, It can't control, Won't take toll.

To not be, To be everything and nothing, At the same time, It will go fast, As slow as nothing was meant to last.

Then time isn't there, Even when it's everywhere, An endless pause, A never stopping cause.

The coin had two sides, Even if one hides, Observe their shape, Know the differences.

Upside down, Downside up, Won't matter, When it's one cup.

Full and empty, Black and white, Wrong and right, Turn it around, It's all one sound, Simulation and reality, Stimulation and lucidity.

To be and not to be, Existence and divinity. Experience being a part, Living is a whole art.

"I don't want to be here." Maria whines. "It's not that bad Mama!" Mini excites. "Little bitch. Don't call me that!" Maria cries. "But you are so pretty and cool..." Mini hides.

"I don't care little shit, drown in your own drool!" Maria hates. "Drown?" Mini asks. "To run your little throat over with water until you collapse from agonous chocking, babe." Maria masks. "But how will I make people happy than???" Mini blasts. "Don't you scream or cry, or I'll make you with my knife!" Maria says. "Knives are dangerous Maria, please don't!!!" Mini begs.

"Yeah that's what makes them usefull. Fuck your whining, Fuck your crying, Let's see how many breaths it takes, Until we start colliding, Hold on tight darling, It's over in a second, You're testing my nerve, I'll bring you, What you deserve." Maria rhyms.

"Maria confuses me, While sweet is all, I am trying to be. Kisses, laughter, cuddles, All you want for free, Splashing the puddles, Climbing the tree, And blowing bubbles. Why do you want to kill me? I am not mean, Can't you see? Just play with me, And leave it be. Laughter and fun, An infinite amount, Eating candy, Playing merry-go-round. Give me a hug, some love, Maybe a belly rub. I promise, I'll behave, Don't lock my up, In a cold dark cave..." Mini says.

Inspiration:

First visualisation of how I experience existence.

Intrigueing conversation about the world, our existence, coding, bytes, 00101011, with my housemate who is studying ICT aspiring to be a Software Engineer.

The books I read to help me understand humans, the world, gender roles, creative institutions and communication with other people in an effective way: