#unluckeythoughts

How am I supposed to feel? 

When I'm in this situation How can I move forward? I don't doubt my ability to survive One to many times did I find myself at war To live or not to live Was the only question that rang through my mind like the siren of a police car Warning me that something unpleasant is coming my way

For years, I have struggled While just recently did I realize that I am my mind, body, and soul I control everything and those things that I cannot control Are not worthy of being compared to something as significant as my life I know that now Isn't that so fucking awesome?! Before, I would let negative forces completely overpower anything remotely positive in this life I apologize for that

I wake up every morning and I know that's a blessing from my ancestors who fought and worked so hard No matter how the day goes or night falls I fight hard because I know that It was all for my survival I thank you for that

I will continue to grow I will continue to love I will continue to be open I will continue to be kind I will continue to be strong

Everything was not in vain because I am YOU and I know I can overcome anything within due time. After all this time, I have finally realized I'm not alone and I will continue to live this beautiful life.

Thank you

How do you not see what’s right in front of you?

Why did it take you invading my privacy to understand me?

You’re not able to comprehend 

the simplest forms of speech

Yet, you have the most words

Words that must be spoken 

Words that must be heard

If it’s not falling from your lips

the meaning is insignificant 

Now the one way I used to cope

with the chaos around me is gone

Just like the words

that never got the chance to leave my lips

All I really crave in life is a heart to hold

Something to feel real

Not just another lie I’m told

You can’t just be a figment of my imagination

You have to be real

I’m just thinking about texting you

I’m just thinking about kissing you

I’m just thinking about all of the things you do

Why is it that I let go of you?

I can’t decide if this is right

Wishing you could hold me tight 

I should have let you in my mind

You would give me peace

and let me know that I can just be me

Hello again, it's me.

The brightest little star you'll ever see

I noticed your shine doesn't seem as bright

I couldn't sit and watch it die

So listen to my words

Let them dispose of any doubt

You mean the world to me

I'm sorry that you're hurting

The Milky Way would never be the same

if you continue to fade out

I only want what's best for you

Let me be selfish

I'll give my light to you,

just hold on to me every night

Stop

Stare

Walk away

I know that you have nothing helpful to say

You stare at me like I'm a fish in a tank

Unable to comprehend my existence

Stop

Stare

Walk away

In the same place

but now in a daze

Stuck in time

going through the cycle

Just me and the glass of this tank

watching you tread lightly

I'm lost

in between the faces