Um.. I'm not sure if any if you guys have ever gone through horrible self-hate and body abusing, but I've just been having a really hard time.. My dysphoria has been getting to me and my s/o isn't helping any.. She just keeps getting me more and more depressed I just... I need some help or advice.. I don't wanna live like this anymore..
Alex: I mean, I’m not gonna lie, testosterone helped a bunch. I rarely get misgendered anymore and that is a goddamn blessing. But no, that doesn’t mean I don’t get insecure anymore, about… a bunch of things, honestly - sometimes it’s my voice or, like you already said, my height, and sometimes entirely different things depending on the day. When I was younger and not on T yet, I chopped off my hair because I thought it looked too feminine.
Alex: I honestly don’t know which kind of dysphoria I get the most, it varies. On some days, especially when I can’t wear my binder, that’s bad of course. Especially combined with the long hair, then, I still kinda want to take a razor to it sometimes. My signifs usually help me through that, too.
Alex: Especially Laf, because on her Marie-days she experiences something similar, but John and Herc do their best, too. There’s no magic cure for dysphoria, of course, but they do their best to reassure me so I feel less horrible about myself. I mean, it sounds incredibly mundane, but just them telling me that no, I’m no less of a man just because my anatomy doesn’t quite conform with what you’d usually expect helps a lot.
Alex: And it’s important to remember that even when it feels horrible in that moment, it’s going to get better, I promise. There’s still gonna be good and bad days, but all in all, it’s worth going on.
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