#unfun stuff

I’ve seen a lot of people start using he/him for Shayy again after they were exposed as a sexual abuser & groomer, and as such I am going to bring back the argument of why misgendering bad people who are trans is still not good.

Hey guys, thanks for sticking around during those dark ages of unproductiveness. I hope you’re all well.

Wanna vent about something but it would be really fucking stupid to do and venting about it would inherently be hypocritical so I won’t except I kind of am doing so right now then meaning that by making this post I get the negatives of just venting about it normally but I don’t get any of the positives so what is the fucking point of this post when literally every other option would be better than making it and yet here I am, writing it while knowing that. I should just stop being such a god damn wimp and push through it cause the way I’m dealing with it rn is just making it worse for everyone involved including myself so why does this post even exist when the whole point of this rant is that it shouldn’t? I should just delete this post and it shouldn’t see the light of day and yet I won’t cause I’m a god damn coward who can’t ever commit to anything nor stick to my word and this post is gonna do nothing except worry some of my friends probably and I say that I don’t like worrying people but if that were true then I wouldn’t be making this fucking post because I have no reason to and I’m also being intentionally more degrading towards myself in this post so that the people reading this will feel more bad for me and think I have it worse than I do and I know that and I’m still writing this post and still fucking doing it and I constantly do that I’m just a god damn hypocrite and liar in everything I do and I should just shut the fuck up cause so many of the people I care about have it worse than me and I shouldn’t bother them by making this post where I intentionally am trying to make people worried about me cause that’s just gonna make it worse for them and I have a good family and no trauma and no confirmed disabilities so basically I have a perfect fucking life and I shouldn’t complain cause the only thing that possibly could be blamed for me being like this is myself so I should just shut up and let the people who actually deserve to speak and vent and such do so because clearly I can’t fucking handle the ability to do so cause if I could then I wouldn’t be trying to make myself out to have worse mental health than I actually do like I haven’t ever even fucking self-harmed I’m literally fucking fine and should stop taking up this much space and I don’t even know if I want to get better, in fact there’s been so many times I’ve wished that I had trauma or was disabled or had an eating disorder or was suicidal or so much fucking else because I’m probably just acting the way I am because I convinced myself that I have as bad mental health as I do when I really don’t because I wanted attention and to be ‘special’ and not boring and I don’t even know how much of what I said in this post is true because I can’t tell when I’m acting and playing a character and when I am myself. I don’t even know what myself is at this point or if it exists or if the only thing I do is playing a character. So in conclusion: I’m manipulative as fuck and if you’re reading this and have read the entire thing, chances are that you probably care about me to some degree in which case I’d recommend you to block me and get away from me because I’m a lying and untrustworthy and attention-seeking jerk and it’d probably be better for you to not be close to me