#under thinking

I might be overthinking but you're underthinking and that's the worse crime tbh

Having bad moment, feel like my throat closing up on me. Feel like idiot.

I get overly excited about small things, and I just seem happy all the time. I always joke about too, which isn’t such a good thing. If I’m actually trying to be serious, everyone still laughs as though it’s a joke. So I’ve learnt to just keep things locked up, but if I do start opening up to someone, I say too much then regret it later on. I just get fed up sometimes. I just feel like giving up. I need someone to talk to but I literally have no one. No one to open up to, and it makes me feel even worse because I want to talk to my friends but I can’t. I physically can’t.

Sometimes I think about what it means to get lost in one's thoughts.  It so fascinating how someone can just get completely immersed in what they're thinking about.  How nothing else around them is reality just for the time it takes them to snap out of their thoughts.  Nothing at all seems real except what thoughts are in that person's head.  Sometimes it's good to know that there's more going on than what's visible.  That these people that we encounter everyday are thinking about what could be and what was and what more there is to life than all of this.  It's pure magic to look over and see this person just lost, and even if it's the bad kind of lost that most of us seem to be, it's still amazing to know that something is being thought about, or solved, and to know most of all that there's other people out in the world that are just as lost as all of us.  

Important things on my mind, can't stop thinking, need sleep.