#undelivered

To my dearest J,

I still think and miss you every passing hour. You are one of my life’s biggest regret. I regret not telling you how your smile instantly brightens up my day. I regret not making you feel the love you deserve. I regret not holding your hands when you most needed it. I regret not telling you how much I love your brown eyes under the sun, how they change colors; it’s magical, it takes me to another world. I regret saying ‘no’ when all that’s in me wanted to scream ‘yes’, I will never forget the face you made after hearing that word. I regret not holding on to you, I regret letting you go. I regret every single day of my life without you in it.

But if there’s one thing I don’t regret, it is knowing your soul and falling deep for it. You are one of the few regrets in my life that I’d gladly take over and over again. So, I owe the world the chance(s) it threw at us.

P.S. - I hope you find peace as I did. I hope you find the happiness you’re looking for. I hope we both learned our lesson and try our best to be someone better for someone different. I hope you don’t stop reaching for our stars, even alone, because I never doubted your potential – you can make a universe out of yourself. Be the kind of person I believed you would be when our eyes first met. Be the brightest star in all the galaxies.

Your fallen star, S.

Hi?

I still remember our first “hi”, almost ten years ago. A lot has happened since then. Smiles were seen, laughs were heard, tears were shed and hearts broke. But if I would be given a chance to do it all over again, I would, gladly. For you were--

the lesson I must learn to know how to look at the mirror and love the person staring back,

the music I must dance to feel all the light and love I am capable of, just hiding inside me,

and the heartbreak I must feel to learn that true happiness is not measured by earthly things-- that it is more powerful and beyond that.

Remember that you will always have this special place in my heart. That no matter how long it was long ago, I would still smile everytime someone mentions your name.

With all the beats of my heart, I wish that you find true happiness like I do now. I hope that someday, when we cross paths, we’ll smile to one another, heart and soul.