Having acknowledged that I'm Umtimecia has felt freeing, almost. Like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Like I've accepted a part of me I've tried cutting off again and again. It feels good, despite her being villainous. Though I wouldn't call her evil--I was more like a force of nature rather than a malevolent entity. I simply WAS, and in my nature I sought to compress Time and consume all of reality. I didn't do it to hurt people or to gain power. The only time I wanted to hurt someone was when I killed Hyne with my sisters and consumed his Flesh. Everything else...well, that was simply an effect of what I was. I didn't understand mortals. I barely understood monsters, which were far closer to the sort of entity I was.
Now, as myself, I do feel...not guilty, per se. But definitely remorseful. I wish I hadn't hurt so many people back then. That I hadn't destroyed the universe itself. I wish that the Gardens never had to be created. That children weren't raised as soldiers and forced to become SeeDs. That Edea and Cid could have had a happy life as a married couple raising the children of the Orphanage. That I never forced Adel into...everything. and then killed her, too, like she meant nothing to me. That I had cared for Seifer the way he cared for me, and that I could comprehend the value he placed on his friends. I wish I had treated him better. What I felt for him could almost be mistaken for love by a mortal, I think. But love wasn't something I could comprehend, back then.
I wish them all well, wherever they were. Everyone from that timeline.
From Sorceress Ultimecia of Final Fantasy 8.
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