#ultramasc

I'm not even sure if I want to be masc. I think it's more so the fact that I'm trying to let everyone else KNOW that I'm gay.or trying to convince myself if I dress this way, the higher my chances are that a queer girl finds me attractive and wants to get to know me. More so that I don't know what else looks gay and all I've been taught is that gay girls are all supposed to be masculine, and I hate that thought but it creeps up on me when I wear something tight and I'm like "this isn't gay it looks so straight." I don't know what to do. Dress like a stereotypical gay person and question my identity and get perceived as gay or dress how I want and get perceived as basic bitch with no trace of gay blood inside of her. Please help me