ferryman is one of my clinks and it's just so. odd, sometimes. because i know for a Fact that they're not one of my kins, i don't have any memories as them and i don't have that same connection to them as i do my actual kintypes, but they still just. Feel like me, y'kno? and i use them as a way to cope in a pretty specific way.
so tell me why even though they weren't a past life, i miss gabriel like fucking hell. like i feel like by nature of clink it'd be understandable for me to like him a lot because of. well, because of the Everything (if u kno ultk u kno what i'm talking abt). but also i just wanna be held by him so badly and have him tell me everything isn't my fault just because i'm Like This.
it just feels so confusing. i can't imagine that i have some secret undiscovered ultk kin that i don't know about because this feeling really only comes around when i'm having a ferryman "haha they're just like me for real" moment.
idk man maybe i'm just gay or smth smh (joking, i am gay but also i'm not like. attracted to him in any meaningful way if that makes sense? saying that as if anything i just said makes sense but whatever)
- the ferryman 🪙 (copinglink, ultrakill)