#two:

Ruh roh

(Nightmare -> Jokublog, Ink -> Comyet)

And how do you feel? Obviously you need time to heal and feel like yourself again, that's totally understandable! And I know you didn't say it back but you do still love him, you showed you care about him when you told him to eat and sleep! But do you want to try again with him? Or are you going to use that time to maybe get over him? What do the guys say?

-👀

As soon as I leave the house, I all, but collapse into Bakugo. He’s solid and warm as I press my cheek against his chest, my fists balled in the flimsy material of his windbreaker as the material of the T-shirt underneath darkens with tears. I’m numb. Completely. Despite the somewhat positive note I leave Kaminari; I’m still left stranded in an endless desert of hurt…

‘I didn’t want to feel like this again…’ A sob wrecks my chest as the well deepens. It all comes flooding back. Heartbreak is a strange emotion. It’s creeping, until it isn’t, but as it nestles back in my bones it feels like coming home. I’ve been here before and it hurts. It’s fucking hurts so much. I choke on a sob, tighten my fist in his shirt. ‘I don’t want - I can’t. I can’t do this again.’

Bakugo feels it too. The prickle of my heartbreak infests him. It’s been a while since he last saw me like this, but it’s still far too soon for his liking. It makes him sick to the stomach. But it’s the memories that really do a number on him. It’s hard to forget the last time he’d seen me reduced to a shadow, struggling against the tide of numbness swelling in my chest, he remembers it too well. He remembers because he was the cause of it. ‘I know.’ He coos, kisses my crown and holds me back like he’s keeping me together. ‘I know, baby. I know.’

Lot of bad shit came out from it, most I can laugh at now, but,

I miss.. running Hazbin Disc Servers.

In that. I miss having a discord lil space w all my friends and mutuals for us to dick around and chat and do RP stuff and share posts and thoughts ...

GOD the fucking public text chat room rps were so funny and enjoyable. It was such a fun format to write in and it left so many hilarious situations.

and if I was a stronger woman, I WOULD make a little mutuals discord server and stuff again, but ... I’m awkward. I’m bad at communication and keeping things afloat. And I don’t wanna run a Disc by myself and shit yk. I liked just being an admin, not the main bitch running the show cus that felt too much pressure LOL

… There’s already a ‘necessary’ evil, and her name is Azu/the Ark. You don’t create such a wiley, clever big bad and then unceremoniously kill her off.

Azu/The Ark may be one of my favourite KR big bads ever, and I think it sucks that she’s getting shoved aside like this.

Mbjr doesn’t need to ‘become a necessary evil threat,’ that already exists, and it’s the fucking dark side of humanity itself. I don’t like how the series keeps trying to remove the responsibility from humans (who, might I add, at no point take responsibility for having caused all of this, any of them, in any way). The data the Ark had might’ve been biased, but it was real. The ‘boogey man’ is the Ark. She’s always going to be there, even if mbjr does this and dies, she’ll just rise again. Bc you can’t defeat it. It’s just the nature of life, whether one is human, animal, or insect. Except maybe plants. But they aren’t much for personality.