#tw yapping

Im soooooooo stupid

More than usual 🥀

Its about the boy again

I totally wasnt looking at him from afar and then he turned around and saw me staring. And then am now scarred for life because him and his friend went to the bathroom together and came back in i looked at his friend and he looked back at me, so I totally didn't jump to conclusions and thought that he was talking about meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I struggled with putting their images in there and couldn't find a qr code maker that worked smh

August is trans masc, autistic, and dating Loki. He's biromantic asexual, and transferred to Moonlight Universtiy because he was failing at his old school because it wasn't challenging him so he didn't care.

August isn't a huge fan of the uniforms, but will take any chance to accessorized as much as he's allowed. His average is 92, and the classes he does best in is English/Literature and Health class (if there is those. Idk the classes). I modified his uniform a bit, the shoes because august is semi based on me and I would break my ankle wearing the old shoes

My man got de-tailed and de-eared just to go to school </3 (he's my persona and he usually has dog ears and a tail)

Loki is nombinary and I had no idea whether to give them the male or female uniform, so I just threw a skirt on over the pants lol. Loki's super tall, loki also has vitiligo, but I forgot it, so I'm just going to say you just can't see it in the picture. Loki's hair color is natural, not dyed.

Loki's average is 90, and their best class is Art or Math.

Does anyone have that person who is usually kinda mean to them but once they notice you’re having a hard time they basically switch personalities?

I know someone like this. We’ll call her A.

Now A and I have a really complicated relationship because we used to be friends but I left her friend group for personal reasons.

A is usually mean to me but for some reason every now and then she’s just randomly nice to me.

The example I could think of was the time I broke down crying in 6th period because I was already in a bad mood from a guy who I thought liked me chose another girl, and then a lot of stuff happened, including A being mean to me in 6th period.

This girl instantly turned around and apologized, mostly because she thought it was her fault.

I guess my goal these past few months was to be acknowledged and that was always my end goal sorta just to be acknowledged

I mean I did get it sorta it’s weird

I kinda miss when I was just posting and making art and writing thoughts for myself rather than just comparing myself to everyone in the history of ever and how I’m a failure and they’re not

Then I was obsessing over Kanye west (mostly his music lol) drawing my ocs and making everything about Craig tucker how the fuck did I end up here

Realistically I love receiving attention for what I make whether it be people positively engaging with it or people just saying “I don’t like it” because even though both interactions seem different they really aren’t because in the end I’m being acknowledged they spent time looking at what I made and said something about it which is what i wanted

Being ignored is a bit more of an insult to me because that implies that what I made isn’t worth anybody’s time although it doesn’t reflect about how they feel about me personally because realistically we all are people behind a screen and we can’t like EVERYSINGLETHINGONTHEONTERNET and that’s bound to happen but idk man it sucks wanting to show my art and the person below me gets million times more recognition

I don’t wanna pretend I’m some tortured artist or poet because realistically I’m not I’m just a teenager on the internet with bad self esteem in a sea of teenagers with the same issue

But I have the belief that everyone I mean everyone needs atleast some encouragement to be truly motivated to keep going

Tldr dandys world gave me an existential crisis and idk if I wanna keep participating maybe this isn’t about dandys world it’s about ME as a PERSON