#tw truth

Kinda regretting saying I’d always be honest in these, but lets go anyway, I keep my promises. I’m shit right now. Really bad. I’m numb and thats that. I know logically its bad but emotionally I couldn’t give two shits. Please dont flood my inbox asking me to explain and I’m sorry if thats rude but it wont help me.

What triggered this change in mood from earlier today (i had a wonderful morning and I was really happy). Is that my mom and sister were fighting over something idk what it was but when I went to check what was up they both got pissed at me for being nosy and stuff. Which they always do. They get mad at me for everything. It’s so upsetting. They’ve gotten mad at me for crying before. Apparently I’m really fucking annoying.

And tw. Also graphicness? I’m also probably starting my monthly period soon so that shits happening. It’s disgusting and as a trans man it’s way worse because its the grossest thing to happen to me for being in a girls body. Right up there with the thought of something entering me in a typically female manor. Sorry I know that was gross.

And also someone on the togethertube chat asked my to not use caps which i like to use. I did stop. But they left. Its not their fault this made me upset it was probably making them anxious so if you know who I’m talking about don’t you dare attack them that wont help.

But yea, I said I’d be truthful about asks so theres the truth. Sorry that this is very real.

Whilst I, the stoic Paladin, am right here. She do sayeth, 'Ye Paladin, would that I had I man such as thyself, so noble and pure! But alas, your vows do so prevent such a union~'

clexa: nope sink it. fin/raven: he cheated but sympathize with him only. raven asked for it right. bellorke shit: everything is clarke’s fault even regardless of that fact this ship has yet to even set sail in the show. (both actors are not shippers) bellamy/echo: does not ever stand a chance of being supported. which again is her fault and irredeemable. 

Seriously, if you’re overly religious - aka you fucking HATE anyone who doesn’t agree with your religion or anything similar to it - then, don’t read this. And if you do; don’t get pissed off at me for “not warning you” or anything. 

I don’t have a problem with anyone’s religion especially if they’re like “you’re not in this religion? Okay, that’s cool. Your choice, dude.” What I DO have a problem with is people who try to force their religion down my throat or give me shit for not being in x religion.

But here we go.

But then I found out it stands for Original Character

But that doesn’t make sense

Why?

Oh, No! Not Another Girl Muse!!!...

There seems to be this idiotic idea that when one creates a female muse for rp that somehow women cannot be included in this here thing we call stories, nor can they have their own stories without being someone’s significant other or be played in any way other than how the current douche bags of tumblr anon see women as being represented. Wait... or is it just those images pictured above of epic creations of various ladies young and old, not to mention thousands of others, disproving this silly recent idea that great female characters never have existed in film and tv, that reassures me that when you create a woman muse you are simply creating a person, capable of whatever you choose yourself for whatever type of story you’d like to place her in, and those who will say behind gray faces, or not, that they can or can’t do certain things, have or can’t have so many connections or relationships, that women aren’t capable of doing all the awesome things that men do in action movies, that they have to be “real” which translates to what exactly, or that they can’t be evil villains like all the dudes out there, are full of shit?

First things first, support your local lady muses along with other kinds of muses that hardly get the attention they deserve like non-white and LBGT muses.

Secondly, your number of followers does not mean shit. You can have a muse that looks like a Tom, be it Hiddles or Hardy, and have hundreds upon hundreds of followers that you never interact with, or be a chick that looks like somebody you admire and have a little cluster of people you can have great rps with.

Most followers are never rpers anyway, they are either fangirls/boys or porn blogs and will unfollow when you are not constantly a sexy pretend penis for them. Things like a great bio, character development and nifty little head canons matter not to these folk. They are only here to see a pretty face of a popular guy from a show they really, really care about. Or they are a porn blog. Your number of followers does not matter. At all. So don’t fret lady muses.

What does matter is finding a few to maybe a handful of fellow rp pals to explore stories and continue to develop your ladies with. Creating a verse or two, and one(s) that you can truly fall back on, is key to having a continuing rp story. Its doesn’t have to be Shippy, or maybe it is which is cool, but these are the people you should focus on when you get online. Not the numbers. Not the possibilities that may or may not happen.

Thirdly, Shipping and Smut. Not that thing called relationships which leads to contact between those things called naughty bits, and might involve love or just a liking or some liquor... must we all be virgins who hath been betrothed to Sir NeverGetSome? You’ll find sometimes on here if you play a woman, whether you are a good girl or a bad girl or just a girl, that you will get annoying anons about your lady’s personal business, or lack there of. If you have two or more Ships you are somehow a “slut”, regardless if its separate verses or not. These anons are just jealous cause you’ve managed to either Ship with someone they couldn’t, can interact in a way with other muses that leads to you being in that Ship where they can’t, or because they are here to just Smut and can’t get Smut but you can and they don’t even associate it with it being in an actual Ship. 

Yes, there is this small group of lady muses that are only here for pretty FCs and they will drop threads when guy muses start to get into their character’s story, or they will force Ships and drop threads when they can’t get any, and they will pull guy muses away from their canon and not care anything about what they are really about or what is even written in replies sometimes. These people are who give other wonderful creations bad names and make muns that play dudes wary of muns who play ladies. Now with that being said, there is nothing wrong with being a Ship whore, a lady muse who can have emotionally detached sex, has issues with herself or relationships, is a virgin, is not a virgin, is a slut, is a sex worker, or is a victim or not a victim. Or is just somebody’s mom. Ignore the anon hate as best as you can. And, guy muses, not all lady muses are just after your FC, and none are obligated to add up to what lies society has told you women should be.

Now stepping out of the rp jungle of popularity and Ships, lets talk about issues with lady muses that are usually left ignored. Sometimes you may feel your muse isn’t as fully developed as someone else’s. But maybe they’ve just played their’s longer and all you need to do is branch out and play your’s more. It’s the best way to develop a muse. Maybe your confidence has been knocked down some. In this case I suggest, and it has worked for me, focusing on a couple threads and partners and getting your mojo back. You don’t always have to be so spread out, and there is nothing wrong with taking your time to figure out your muse’s story, their role in other muses’ rps and then setting them loose. If you happen to have NPCs you’d like to include, or another muse you’d like to try, find an rp partner that’s open to it and add to your muse’s canon. Talk about your head canons often too cause there are people, like me, who try to read everything about everybody, and I even read bios more than once.

And most importantly follow other lady muses, rp with other lady muses and support the muns who portray them. This is not a competition, and if it was the only awards given out would be undue stress, so have each others’ backs and don’t be too afraid to approach people about rp. So many people on here actually support female muses. Its not hard to fit any kind of woman into any kind of story, just find the right people. And others will hate but...