i hate that i keep refreshing my dms as if somehow suddenly i'll see your message.

i hate how much you made me laugh because now i can't laugh at anything like i used to before.

i hate how much you made me feel because now that you're not here all i feel is numb.

i hate how much i'm avoiding thinking about you because whenever i do all i want to do is leave my studies and everything behind and just keep crying in bed all day.

when did all this happen?

how did you swipe right in and made me feel the happiest i've been in a while

but then as fast as you came

as fast as you disappeared.

oh my fucking god, i feel like an idiot all over again.