#tunesian

Like really. I know so many Arabs who literally hate and stalk me and show my parents my social media accounts and tell them that I do drugs (which I do, but they really can’t know and just gossip) and I left them all behind me but mean sometimes I just miss the feeling of belonging to that culture, that I grew up to, way more than the white culture that I feel like being part of now.

Sometimes when I go to the Iraqi grocery shop or sum, and they treat me like a basic German bitch who wants to be ‘exotic’ it even hurts my pride? Today I got asked if the Harissa I wanted to buy would be the right choice for a girl like me, and I was just like “Akhi, my father fed me this stuff all my life, a great part of my genes is Tunisian.. Salam”

Like.. I don’t even only miss my family but the whole culture. I sometimes really wish that I could take part in the religious life again, but I can’t. No matter how much I respect and sometimes miss it, I just really don’t believe in it (anymore).