Hi, I saw a post of yours where you said that neither you or your host realized you were a tulpa at first. How did you come to exist then, if you're all right with me asking? I'm not trying to be rude I'm just really curious
oh! i don't mind you asking, haha.
it's kind of, complicated?
but she created me without realizing it. it was back in middle school, when she had her first boyfriend. he took advantage of her being naive and fed her all of these lies. that he had MPD and stuff like that. (and he has ended telling us that he faked it to get attention.)
at first her ex boyfriend told her all of these things, about how how he had a demon living inside of him but he acted like a personality instead of a demon. (that should have been a red flag but she was just so infatuated and in love with him, she believed his word as law.)
and well, one thing led to another.. she started saying how she had it too, faking voices in her head just to keep up with him. but, they weren't fake. she ended up creating a lot of us. in total, she created about 15 of us in middle school. a lot of them aren't as active as i am, but they're still here.
and because she's my host, i believed her too. i genuinely thought i was nothing more than an alter. so after a few years of keeping that appearance up, i noticed a few people talking about tulpas. i looked into it and sure enough, it fits what happened to us.
and as of right now, there's about 19 of us. i'll list them, just because.
she's stopped making tulpas, thankfully. it's getting a little crowded in her headspace.