#tsuchiman

I'm back with more love themes appropriate for cyberpunk and noir stories. Continuing in the bittersweet vein,  this compilation has a mix of vocal and instrumental songs, with moods that flow from euphoric highs to lows.

"Undercover, underwater.... keep me from wandering....in terror"

Artist / Track name 00:00:00 Dead Astronauts - Roam 00:01:53 Eastghost - Exile 00:08:13 Lorn - Tempered by your love 00:09:31 Miss Kittin - Dub about me 00:16:36 Mlada Fronta - Ytre 00:20:38 Denial of Service - Senka 00:26:20 Massive Attack - Dissolved Girl 00:32:20 Sneaker Pimps - Flowers and Silence 00:38:01 Ulver - Porn Piece or The Scars of Cold Kisses (edit) 00:41:23 Haujobb - Concrete 00:46:09 Structural Fault - Evi 00:51:41 Sterling Angel - Survive (Nmesh SA Edit) 00:57:47 The Glitch Mob - Between Two Points (feat. Swan) 01:03:07 Lazerhawk - Dreamrider 01:07:53 Sonic Mayhem - Bleed Forever (feat. Malukah) 01:15:10 The Glitch Mob - The Clouds Breathe For You (Anuma Remix) 01:20:16 Bassnectar - Underwater (feat. Tina Malia) 01:26:41 Structural Fault - -10C Romantic

tagged by @blu27nature

Another year around the sun. 

Not sure I have much to say, other than whatever it is you want, go for it. 

This whole last year, the chaos of 2020 until now, has shown me to stop worrying so much about all the bullshit. Nobody is keeping track of your worries. Nobody cares. 

Your life is yours to guide and determine. Stop listening to all the chatter and focus on what you want. And be more real. Be truthful, even if it lands you into some trouble. Be honest, up to the point of pushing and pulling yourself to your limits. Admit what you are, and if you don’t like that, then there’s your starting point to fix it. 

What’s the alternative? Lie to yourself so you can get by one more day? What if instead, you broke those habits and actually inched closer to who you could be. 

I don’t know what’s in the air these days, but it’s like everyone has a stick up their ass about something. I get the idea of proving a point by exemplifying bad behavior, and professing to be holier-than-thou. I think we all do it to some degree. It’s like a tendency to look at a small minutia of data, extrapolate from it, and then apply it to a larger whole. I would even go so far as to guess that this is a natural phenomenon of the human mind, since it would allow us to remain alert for any possible danger based on experiencing a small example of it. It’s just getting real irritating hearing but the Real Problem is...! The Patriarchy, or it’s Systemic Racism, or it’s Heteronormativity, or Western Colonization, or Capitalism. These accusations are calcifying our ability to relate to each other, since they roam about on invisible threads and needles, toying with our emotions and making everyone suspect to one another.  I find myself oscillating between absolutely not making sweeping claims that [1] every bad thing is a result of some amorphous superstructure of perfectly coordinated individuals, and, [2] there is never an example of any one of these accusations that has lead to bad results. It’s like there is an arms race for the strongest mythos to make sense of things. There is a force behind the proponents of these phrases that wishes to subjugate people based on outcries of vague guilt: ‘You may have done nothing wrong, but you’re guilty by association! Repent now or be ostracized.’ The Soviets would be proud. And the blowback from these claims, made by people on the outside of the mainstream camp, can be just as annoying too, but not nearly as smarmy and self-unaware as the accusers.

You can find ways to dismiss these claims as pure falsehoods, or better yet, whittle the arguments down to ad hominems and red herrings, or any other rhetorical ploy, which reveals their pure psychological motivation/s. Here is something Jung wrote about concerning women and Animus Possession:

[335] “The animus [psychological imago] does not appear as one person, but as a plurality of persons. In H. G. Wells’ novel Christina Alberta’s Father, the heroine, in all that she does or does not do, is constantly under the surveillance of a supreme moral authority, which tells her with remorseless precision and dry matter-of-factness what she is doing and for what motives. Wells calls this authority a 'Court of Conscience.' This collection of condemnatory judges, a sort of College of Preceptors, corresponds to a personification of the animus. The animus is rather like an assembly of fathers or dignitaries of some kind who lay down incontestable, 'rational,' ex cathedra judgments. On closer examination these exacting judgments turn out to be largely sayings and opinions scraped together more or less unconsciously from childhood on, and compressed into a canon of average truth, justice, and reasonableness, a compendium of preconceptions which, whenever a conscious and competent judgment is lacking (as not infrequently happens), instantly obliges with an opinion.”

[337] “A woman possessed by the animus is always in danger of losing her femininity, her adapted feminine persona, just as a man in like circumstances [anima possession] runs the risk of effeminacy. These psychic changes of sex are due entirely to the fact that a function which belongs inside has been turned outside. The reason for this perversion is clearly the failure to give adequate recognition to an inner world which stands autonomously opposed to the outer world, and makes just as serious demands on our capacity for adaptation.” -Anima and Animus, The Relations Between the Ego and the Unconscious, Pt. II

I would argue Jung accurately predicted and revealed the inner motivations for what our contemporary lingo dubs The Patriarchy. And this is coming from a novice, recreational reader, located on some distant planet with nothing to go on except my own intuition. I just cannot take as fact that the flag waving behind calls to End the Patriarchy! points to anything truly physical; it only reveals a synthesis of projection and a lack of self-examination. But what would it take for people to seriously consider the sources of their aggression, their animosity? If everywhere you look, you see masculinity as a problem, maybe it’s your axis of assumption that needs assessment. This isn’t to say that men do not need to mature within their lifetime. But there has to be a recognition between expectations and reality. Parenting and socialization leads people to grow up to a certain point, but past that cultivation period, folks can easily slip through the cracks. The animosity towards masculinity is perhaps a recognition: people who fall through the cracks do not learn to play the game as we expect them to. Who’s fault is that? 

That is just one attempt at clarifying the fervor in some of these sweeping movements. They run rampant, treading over anything they wish to subsume into the muck and mire of nothingness. And it’s very tiring. You have to see the line of logic being applied that aims to undermine something as foundational as the scientific method. How do you defend against this charlatanism, when the mere act of calling it out as “false” leads you, the rebutter, down the road of Colonial Tyranny? At least find it in yourself to not follow those who would make that argument.