hi little people in my phone!! as promised, here’s a lil update for you all (i would’ve posted earlier but ive been busy today à la birthday stuff lol)
regarding The Sound of Heartbreak:
i’ll be totally honest, i don’t know if i will continue it. i want to, but trying to figure out how to continue the fic in the direction i was originally aiming feels… wrong? like, rereading the fic for reference’s sake to work on the continuation made me kind of realize that, unfortunately, a relationship like this is simply not sustainable nor healthy.
spencer was still grieving over maeve and hadn’t moved on from her, and in his eyes, reader was kind of an outlet to push his love onto that he was never able to do for maeve. which is why he kind of… did things that would, in a way, shape her into what maeve was. teaching her chess, reading certain books to her, talking about certain topics.
if i do ever do a continuation—which i would absolutely love to do, don’t get me wrong—i don’t know if i could do it in the original direction i had planned.
mostly because this fic is kind of self expression and exploration, in a way, for me. angel is based mostly on myself, and recently, while I haven’t been actively writing much (life has been busy, unfortunately), I have found that my self respect and understanding and love has changed since i originally wrote/planned this fic/series. and in reality? i don’t think I would ever go back to someone who tried to mold me into someone else. even if that someone was spencer reid. it just feels like self sabotage. and im sorry about that, but i really hope you can understand it.
regarding records!reader:
i love that so many people love this series like genuinely dewey is my lil cryptid and i adore her SO much. i have what i want to say is about half of encyclopedic written out, but i seem to have a lot of difficulty with writing casefics, ive found. there’s a lot of detail and such that goes into writing them, and being at the place im in lately it’s super hard to get into the right headspace to write all of those details in correctly, in a way that im satisfied with.
regarding all other fics:
this is where there’s better news, i promise. ive written around ~3k words across two different fics—one is super fluffy and the other is casefic-adjacent. im hoping that, if life is kind and gives me time and the right energy, i can have the fluffy one wrapped up and, ideally, posted by feb.
as always, thank u all so SO much for loving my silly little words so much it gives me the worst impostor syndrome but ily so bad 😭🤍
