When I was a kid my mum was agoraphobic.. As a child I didn't know the terminology agoraphobia was my mum's condition, she just never left the house, to me my mum just didn't leave the house she never picked me up from school or went to sports days not even to the local shop I remember one time I waited hours and hours at the school gates waiting for someone to pick me up (a sibling or family friend) no one came, I must of been about 7/8 I new my nanna and grandad lived not far away so after waiting and watching all the other kids go I waited some more till I finally decided to walk to my grandparents house. The walk took what felt like forever across some big roads and grassy embankment I remember the daffodils all over the grass and the imprints my feet left in the mud, I dont really remember much after that I remember my grandad being angry though I don't think it was at me, anyway I'm getting of track so my mum on agoraphobia, my dad took me out one day we went on this big drive up some hills and we stopped in the middle of nowhere so I could get out and see the view I asked him about a tv show I saw where this girl was scared of open spaces, he told me agoraphobia was fear of open spaces.. I couldn't understand how someone could be so scared of something so beautiful, I wanted to see the world, I wanted to see every vast landscape I could. It wasn't till many years later that I worked out the girl on the TV show had the same illness my mum had, what was she so scared of? Maybe I'll ask her but I'm sure the answer will be similar to mine now.. What are you scared of Bille... Everything.
