Sometimes you gotta draw yourself happy when you're not so happy ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ TW: talk about depression and some serious thoughts that come with it. Honestly can't tell if I'm being melodramatic or not, if I told my family they would probably think so. But anyways, I kinda feel like my life is falling apart? I know this year has been really hard on everyone, but man does 2020 like to beat the shit out of everyone close to me and myself. With me not being able to get a job, loosing my religion, my house burning, being homeless for a month, a literal pandemic, my dad loosing his job, being in my childhood house where I relive old traumas, my friend going through some shit with the Navy and had to be immitted to a mental hospital, another friend getting covid, my dad having a stroke and staying in the VA hospital for almost 4 days, my uncle's family getting covid, my therapist telling me that he doesn't believe in HRT and transitioning, my mom saying that me being transgender is being sick and that needs to be cured, feeling guilty over my dad's stroke, and finally overall feeling shity. I've had thoughts on ending it. It's honestly hard to see a future for me. I don't really have a way to express any of it. If I say these things out loud the best thing that could happen is that I get slapped in the mouth and the worst is that I could give my dad another stroke. The only things keeping me going is the possible guilt that if I die my dad might die with me and the possibility that no one will take care of my precious bunny. I guess that that should be enough for a while. I think that's all? Sorry about the vent. . . . /// #vent #ventposts #ventartwork #art #artistsoninstagram #charabart #triggerwaning #depressiontalk https://www.instagram.com/p/CB7dwVvDiQY/?igshid=l2yuq7sjtyni
