#treeroutes

yes centralia is so neat! It’s kind of a local legend even though there is literally nothing to do there just because the whole “accidental underground fire that will burn for hundreds of years that slowly spreads every year” has it’s appeal. I know that it even inspired a silent hill movie (not the games though)! I have not watched it and have been told it wasn’t very good, though there is a short video documentary about the connection.

there’s also another longer documentary called The Town That Was about the history and some of the last remaining residents there. It’s quite bittersweet because some people really fought to keep living there even though it’s considered not safe. both from how hot the ground can get and also because there’s been sinkholes coming up in the past few decades and someone almost died falling into one.

one of the main things people would actually go to centralia for besides trying to find smoke coming out of the ground, was graffiti highway. It was this long stretch of unused road that a lot of people would walk along and ride their dirtbikes and of course, graffiti. unfortunately people started to damage the gravestones of the nearby cemetery so they had to cover it with gravel but it looked like this.

wait, my last ask was supposed to be : do you feel any effects from the leech therapy? someone unexpectedly knocked on my door, i think i hit send to early, sorry 😬

finally answering these i love you al thank you

04. What do you do to perform self-care when you’re feeling dysphoric?

dissoci  at e 😏

uhhhh. self-care is hard dfhdkjf i honestly don’t remember how i get out of that mood/mindset when i’m in it because my borderline ass just empties the cache once it’s over. UH. bitch about it, nap, distract myself? Who Knows!

07. already answered!

20. What do you wish you could have shared with your younger self about being trans?

for the love of g-d stop trying to overperform femininity please love yourself and stop i am Begging you. my younger self was an absolute disaster of a little girl who did NOT know a DAMN thing about what was going on with her and what she could do to save herself. i literally have to refer to her as another person (largely because i mean. we’re a system she technically Is.) i have no way of knowing whether we’d have been better off or what if we’d realized Sooner that Hey, Being Trans Is Both Possible And Good, but i'd love to believe that things could have been a little better if someone had been able to say to us like... hey. it does not have to be like this. you don’t have to be so uncomfortable, you don’t have to answer to that name, you CAN cut your hair off, you DON’T need to wear those clothes, you DON’T need their love to survive and you WILL be happier if you just. stop. i'd love to go back and somehow make it clear that this was an Option and that we didn’t have to just Resign To Our Fate. and also be like “so instead of chasing boys in a trauma way you could, instead, be a cuter boy.” now THAT’D have been hilarious.

i think my first chosen name was “cam,” after a book series jDKGHS but i didn’t realize it back then... tch. Oh Little Ron. If Only We Knew You’d Have A Thing About Three Letter Masc Names That Lean A Bit Androgynous.