#transtition

This is why you would go see a gender therapist get a recommendation to a good endocrinologist who will working closely with you, talk to you about all your legitimate medical concerns and make sure your body and the hormones are working properly. 

Getting there is a long road but it’s good to hear you are learning about all the affects of a medical transition. Also remember that hormones don’t make you a man, it’s what inside and your actions that define who you are.

Here is a great PDF that may be helpful to you.

https://apps.carleton.edu/campus/gsc/assets/hormones_FTM.pdf

The last time I really reset my deck? Well. Feels like 20 years ago. And the primary reason I want to reset them is... Well. I am free of all previous commitments and promises. For the first time, in perhaps my entire lifetime, I can consciously choose, designing my life exactly how I want it. I am not skirting decisions that I made in the past.. I am just saying that I don't believe that I was conscious enough to make many of the decisions I did. Like borrowing tens of thousands of dollars for college, only to get locked into decades of debt repayment. Now that is  choice that most other places in the world have figured out how NOT to impose on their youth. But what one country is doing right, they are most certainly doing something else wrong.. but thats for another post another time. 

I don’t want a job for the money. I don’t want a partner or their validation. I don’t want any status or title, any home or any car for any reason other than their functionality. I don’t have misperceptions of stability or security and I don’t need an advanced education or a specific set of experiences. You get the idea. I don’t need anything.