"Angie brushes away tears as she recalls the morning after she gathered her family around to deliver her life-changing news. "Sandi," she told her wife, "this is the first time in my life when I put my head on my pillow and went to sleep peacefully. I think I experienced what it feels like to die."

I’m currently looking into voice training to improve my singing voice and start vocal exercises before I start hormones at... some point. I want to try and secure a place in a performance group next semester before I go ahead with hormones. I also want to give myself time to work on my very intense needle-phobia.

Since I’m on school insurance, I want to get top surgery done before I graduate. I will see how I feel in March, and hopefully plan a consultation for sometime in the summer, and then hopefully get it done in the summer or during winter break of next school year.

I’m also spacing all of this out so that I have time to consult religious leaders about what these steps will mean for me in terms of membership with the church. It’s a much more complicated mess than just being religious; it’s family social politics, and since I can’t totally separate myself from family (nor do I want to) it needs to be something I keep in mind.