#transmanpride

I don’t exactly know what to caption this but I miss and need this vacation again very soon. #transmanpride #transmenofig #ftm #ftmtransgender #transgender #transMan #lgbt #trans #transsexual #bali #balisurf (at Bali, Indonesia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsuwHUQl6VS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=bgk3dnubz44l

#ftmfitness #ftmtrans #ftmtransman #ftmtransguy #ftmtransitions #trans #transgender #transgendermale #lgbt #lgbtpride #transmanpride #malaysiantransgender #malaysiantransman #transgendermalaysian #transgendermalaysia #transathlete #ftmtransathlete #fencing #sabrefencing #cheatday #foodporn (at Miyakori Jonker)

#ftmfitness #ftmtrans #ftmtransman #ftmtransguy #ftmtransitions #trans #transgender #transgendermale #lgbt #lgbtpride #transmanpride #malaysiantransgender #malaysiantransman #transgendermalaysian #transgendermalaysia #transathlete #ftmtransathlete #fencing #sabrefencing #binding #binder (at Malacca)

#ftmfitness #ftmtrans #ftmtransman #ftmtransguy #ftmtransitions #trans #transgender #transgendermale #lgbt #lgbtpride #transmanpride #malaysiantransgender #malaysiantransman #transgendermalaysian #transgendermalaysia #transathlete #ftmtransathlete #fencing #sabrefencing #bulking #ftmbulking (at Malacca)

Day 2: Brought my dad to the gym for his 2018 goals to lose weight. Check out my ig stories and snapchat stories: ashenxgrunge7 #ftmfitness #ftmtrans #ftmtransman #ftmtransguy #ftmtransitions #trans #transgender #transgendermale #lgbt #lgbtpride #transmanpride #malaysiantransgender #malaysiantransman #transgendermalaysian #transgendermalaysia #transathlete #ftmtransathlete #fencing #sabrefencing #bulking #ftmbulking (at Malacca)

It’s funny how the person who judged me the most for smoking is the reason why I smoke in the first place. It’s been a while since I felt this way, the kind of heartache from the day I got rushed into the hospital for doctors still don’t know what it is. For a year I was taking medication for Epilepsy disorder and my psychiatrist just told me that I don’t have any neurological disorders, I’m just diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorders. Not wanting to educate yourself with mental and neurological disorders doesn’t mean that you’re better than me. This is not something I can just “see someone and it’ll never come back”. I have to live with this for the rest of my life, with people telling me these words that constantly hurt me. Worthless: my worth doesn’t get affected just because apparently I don’t make enough money to support my life and my transition to accept and love myself more, despite constant body dysphoria. Unlovable: I will never find somebody that will love me because I’m still and always in the journey to my transition and whoever who care about me doesn’t really care. Stupid: Just because I’m self medicating, I’m careless and I’m just asking for it. Yeah, because we all have money to get proper medical attention, right? No self-love: I find it hard to say no to my closest friends because rejection is something I had to go through too often that if anyone invites me out my answer will always be yes all the way. Even when I’m dead tired. #ftm #ftmtransgender #ftmfitness #ftmtrans #ftmtransman #ftmtransguy #ftmtransitions #trans #transgender #transgendermale #lgbt #lgbtpride #transmanpride #malaysiantransgender #malaysiantransman #transgendermalaysian #transgendermalaysia (at Malacca)

#ftm #ftmtransgender #ftmfitness #ftmtrans #ftmtransman #ftmtransguy #ftmtransitions #trans #transgender #transgendermale #lgbt #lgbtpride #transmanpride #malaysiantransgender #malaysiantransman #transgendermalaysian #transgendermalaysia (at Malacca)