#trans packers

I want to do a video series where I test out different types of Packers, list the pros and cons, and show what they look like in different types of underwear, and blue jeans vs sweatpants vs dress pants.

While I've had gender dysphoria about my chest since forever, I was never too bothered by the bottom parts.

I noticed that now that I'm on t, my chest dysphoria lessed, while I'm still not dysphoric about the V, I've been wanting to experiment more with packers and such

I did try as a green tranny to use socks an such but honestly I don't get the appeal. I worry they don't look right and they move wrong. And you've got to take them out when peeing

I wanted a "functioning" packer. So. I'm building one

I made one out of modeling clay and I will make a silicone stamp to then make a silicone D.

Have i ever done this before? No. Will that stop me? Nope.

This cost less than buying one online and it looks exactly what I want it to look like. It was I swear to God one of the most euphoric things I've have done...just sculpting myself a pe**s. Is this what god felt like? It this d*ck my eve?

It will be a stand to pee too, I'll add a cannula in the center and the top part will be kinda cup-like. Standard stand to pee design

I plan to pierce it in various places because that's what I'd do if I had one

I don't have anyone to talk about this project with IRL because I worry it'd TMI but maybe if it comes out alright and all I can offer one to my trans friends

Just good vibes honestly

So I made a packer harness. I haven’t found any harnesses that I liked and I didn’t make a pouch though. It’s like a jockstrap but made out of a thong.

Here are some of the steps of anyone else wants to try or even improve upon. This is version three just fyi.

Fist I cut lines across the front where the hem will be (black lines) and then cut along the white lines to make straps and slits for the shaft and sack to be out.

Then I moved the use to be crotch straps to fit around my hips to secure the prosthetic to my pubic area

The finished product should look like this

Now I do have to hem stuff it up but let’s be honest sewing isn’t easy lol I’ll do it another day.

I thought that maybe I was faking being non-binary / transgender because I was “fine” with having a vagina if I could never have bottom surgery and had to pack for the rest of my life.

Turns out, not fine with that. I’m writing this post meltdown so that you know you’re not alone. Well and to remind myself that I’m not faking it, this is real. Now I wouldn’t say I would.. you know… unalive… if I couldn’t get bottom surgery but I surely will be missing a part of myself.

I’m having a hard time putting it into words, hard time understanding why I had the breakdown. What triggered the crying was:

1) STP devices normally look weird to me, don’t match the male silhouette perfectly like I need.

2) I really really REALLY hate packing underwear. Like HATE it.

I still want to dress feminine. I want the lacy panties and the matching underwear sets. Why is it so hard/ degrading to find underwear thats feminine that can hold a penis. Why is it all labeled “sissy” underwear? Why does it also sell sexual adult baby stuff? If you know a site that just sells lacy underwear for men, please let me know.