[ID: a digital illustration of Cronus Ampora and Meulin Leijon next to eachother from the waist up. Cronus Ampora is wearing a large grey jacket with the bi flag and the trans flag stitched into the sleeve, a white tank top with the aquarius symbol, and a black belt holding up blue jeans. He has short slicked back hair, and is holding an unlit cigarette in his mouth. Meulin is wearing a black polo shirt under an olive shirt with a white leo symbol printed on it. she has short hair thats shaved at the sides, and is smiling and pointing to the side. Above mew are three olive colored speech bubbles with images in white. One has the four troll quadrants, one has a skull and crossbones, and the final one has the mars and venus symbols lined up next to eachother. Under then and next to cronus is a violet speech bubble with a white question mark drawn in it. End ID.]

tbh i really liked drawing cronus's outfit here!!

(TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR: Discussions of in text and IRL transphobia, dysphoria, mentions of Mituna, White Knighting, mentions of poor allyship, mental health, anti-otherkin talking points, discussion of March Eridan, and discussion of Homestuck characters being transphobic)

anyways

Cronus Ampora 

a dancestor who appeared in the second of three Openbound sequences in Homestuck Act 6 Intermission 3. Like most dancestors, people tend not to remember much of the specifics about this character. Often portrayed in fanworks as a romantic try-hard just trying to get a date/laid, and a slightly less woobiefied version of his relative Eridan. People do often acknowledge that he fucking sucks (I feel no need to remind people why, as it isn’t too important to the contents of this essay) and he’s often paired with Kankri in fanworks due to him being one of 3 trolls Cronus interacts with on screen in canon. 

But did you know Cronus curates a personal blocklist?

the 2nd of the 3 Openbound segments was released on September 24th of 2012, a year often considered to be the PEAK of tumblr and its to-this-day reputation as an SJW cesspool of identity politics and essays about leftist talking points that don’t matter. Now, personally I think more websites should adopt a 2012 tumblr take on politics. I think we should be able to send as many death threats and illicit pictures of cumflated furries to right-wing politicians as possible to keep them out of online spaces so they cannot curate an easily assessible platform to spread their biggoted ideologies to the general online public, but that is just a personal opinion! 

But my opinion doesn’t matter right now, what matters is the opinion of AH in 2012. And their opinion seemed to be tumblr bad, if you know anything of these Openbound segments. Each of the 10 dancestors*  is based on specific groups of tumblr users from that era, and usually a rather cruel and often times incredibly abelist take on said tumblr users. And Cronus is no exception! 

Cronus Ampora is based on otherkin individuals, a phenomenon that began to be found online in around the 1990s, and over the years began cropping up more and more in online spaces, and ESPECIALLY on tumblr during the early 2010s. 

For context, an otherkin is defined by Google.com as “ a person who identifies as nonhuman, typically as being wholly or partially an animal or mythical being.” or “ denoting or relating to people who identify as nonhuman.”. There is obviously more in depth sources from people who do identify as otherkin online that is easily accessible, but for now these definitions will suffice. 

You see, as Cronus is in fact an alien, he is otherkin with HUMANS! Specifically a 1950s human greaser. And here's where the crux of the matter lies. In AH writing Cronus to represent a 2012 otherkin tumblr user, they accidentally coded him to be trans. 

I know what you’re thinking. “Benny you’re a fucking idiot who just typed over 5 paragraphs for this bullshit and it makes no sense and I hate you now.” and that’s ok! But I’m right, so listen. On tumblr during 2012, there was a large amount of otherkin identifying users on this website, but an important thing to not is almost ALL of these otherkin identifying users where LGBT+, and there was heavy emphasis on that T. You see, a lot of the 2012 otherkin tumblr users where minors who were just beginning to work out their identities and were using the online space to help them do that, not all of course, but a large amount. and the overlap between otherkin identifying tumblr users who were ALSO Homestuck fans during the 2010s was an even HIGHER number of minors working out their identities. Of course I have no fancy statistics to break out or some graphs of numbers of users at the time, but I don’t. So just take my word for it as a guy who had a tumblr in 2012, identified as otherkin, was a Homestuck fan, and was identifying as transgender at the time**. 

So that’s it, right? Cronus is a mean caricature of teenage otherkin Homestuck fans at the time, and otherkin Homestuck fans were mostly transgender, so that’s the post, right? WRONG. FUCK YOU WE’RE JUST GETTING STARTED, FREAK!

Here's where we start broaching the textual implications of dysphoria and transphobia in Cronus's life.

For context, this conversation with Meenah takes place shortly after an argument between her and Cronus happens over some shit with Mituna that does not matter to this post. 

and so here we see Meenah bringing up the fact Cronus “thinks he’s an alien” in the argument. Cronus reacts with apprehension and confusion, and Meenah continues on to critique his choice of hairstyle and fashion. Cronus avoids the topic, instead opting to explain his cigarette is not a wand because his wizarding days are behind him, and to then further explain what a cigarette is. Meenah does not drop the subject and continues to pry, coming right out and asking Cronus if he thinks he’s a human now. Cronus says that its a private matter and doesn't see why he needs to talk about it with Meenah. Meenah then calls this a desperate cry for attention. 

So like, Meenah is being transphobic here, right? No, I get it, this is a silly goofy “oh lol Cronus thinks he’s a human lol what a cringe weirdo he’s obviously just a troll trying to get attention lol”. But isn’t this familiar? 

Cronus in this situation is semi-closeted, not wanting people (specifically Meenah) to know about his identity, while still outwardly presenting himself as his identity. And when one of his peers finds out and brings it up, he tries to avoid the topic, instead opting to try and derail the conversation by bringing up other things like what a cigarette is or how to use it. But when Meenah pushes further, he simply comes right out and says he does not want to to talk about this, especially with her. That is the basics of this conversation, and I understand this is just Meenah confronting Cronus on his Otherkin identity, and him possibly playing coy to try and get her more interested in this topic, but let’s sink our teeth deeper into the subtext of this conversation first.

But let’s take an even further step back and look at some of the subtext of this conversation. Meenah’s immediate reaction to confronting Cronus on his identity is to criticize his outward appearance, she criticizes his hair style first and foremost, and when it comes to peers criticizing recently outed transgender individuals, hair is usually one of the first things to get brought up, especially among transmen. Having shorter hair or more masculine hairstyles on AFAB people is often criticized for being unwomanly, and when its found that the individual is identifying as transgender, it is taken as an offense far more, as hair is often considered a heavily gendered aspect of one’s appearance in our western society. 

Secondly, she compares his cigarette to a wand, and Cronus immediately corrects her that he does not do the wizard thing anymore. Wizards in Homestuck are almost always paired with women. Rose, Eridan, Roxy, and Calliope are the 4 wizard themed characters up to this point. Now, Eridan is not a woman, but I feel the need to argue that Eridan’s use of wizard themes is inherently feminine/tied to femininity. His use of magic is also a topic I will touch on later on though. Also of note, March Eridan came out during 2011, and greatly effected the fandoms view on him. The March Eridan look was even made canon during the Ministrife flash,

 which is basically an honorary 4th part of the Openbound segments. And After Roxy and Calliope’s introductions, Wizards became an even more feminine centered theme. Calliope herself being arguably an icon of femininity within the story, and her wizard themes and imagery only cement the idea that they are a feminine concept within the story. 

So through Cronus’s rejection of his past wizard enjoyment, it comes off as if he is rejecting feminine interests, opting to instead get involved in the greaser fashion, considered in modern times to be some of the peak male/masculine aesthetics. 

After this, Meenah doubles down on confronting Cronus on the matter, explaining she’s heard rumors of his new identity, and flatly asking if that’s true. Cronus continues to dodge talking about it, Not uncommon for trans people who do not wish to be outed, But he does not outright reject the sentiment either, also very common among trans people. It can be hard to stay in the closet, to lie and say you are you AGAB*** (or in this case, ASAB) even when it would be in your best interest, especially when you keep in mind that Cronus along with all of the other dancestors is about 19.5 years old****

Now, all of this just does not feel like Cronus baiting Meenah into further prying into his identity for attention to me, he has spoken in ways that seem baiting before, in this earlier interaction with Meenah from earlier. 

But none of this has felt like bait, Cronus in the identity altercation with Meenah comes off as very awkward and standoffish, and Meenah’s cruel comments genuinely do seem to rub Cronus the wrong way. 

Now, let’s continue with this interaction, let’s get into the next half of this interaction.

Let’s talk about Kankri. 

So I will say preemptively, I have a lot of thoughts about Kankri. A lot. but we aren’t getting into that here. 

Here we see Kankri showing up to this conversation and immediately defending Cronus, who tries to assure him that he can handle the situation himself. Meenah then promptly leaves, as she usually does when Kankri shows up, because she doesn’t like him, and makes a back-handed comment about the two working out their emotions together in the same way a pair of trolls in a quadrant would (especially those who are moirails or possibly even matesprites). Cronus then reacts negatively, upset that Meenah has once again left, lashing out at Kankri for making her leave. 

Now, here we have Cronus in the middle of an argument with Meenah and it’s going incredibly negatively, but he still reacts as if he had a chance with her when she finally leaves, this could either be interpreted as him taking this interaction as blackrom flirting, but I feel like we could tie all of this together further into his transmale coding. 

Kankri here is very obviously playing the ally, and a bit of a cringe one at that, white knighting for Cronus’s identity towards Meenah. Bringing up how Meenah should not shame Cronus for his dysphoria. Now in terms of gender, there are many allies who do go out of their way to try and vouch for trans people, and while their hearts are in the right place, bringing up people’s dysphoria can be embarrassing and counterproductive. And even further, being a transman who is being white knighted for can feel very embarrassing. Nobody wants to feel like a damsel in distress, especially those who don’t want to be damsels in any situation, and it can feel very emasculating for others to try and defend them in situations where they can hold their own ground, which can lead to gender dysphoria. 

And for Meenah to then leave before Cronus even has a chance to further defend himself can come off as if she took the white knighting of a cis***** man to finally leave Cronus be. Now obviously that’s not what's happening in this situation, but it can be easy for trans people to let their anxiety and dysphoria mix and lead to overthought conclusions like this in situation like these. Even going so far as to question whether or not Kankri even had good intentions in this situation, question the grounds of their friendship all together. 

But here’s were the conversation continues 

Here we see Kankri comforting Cronus, explaining that he doesn’t need to go after a girl like Meenah who doesn’t respect his identity. Though his wording is obviously a jab towards how the author does not believe in otherkin beliefs, which is not an uncommon use of Kankri. The author uses him both as a strawman for their distaste in tumblr based politics and commonly found identities on the site, while also using him as a mouthpiece to mock said identites and politics. But taking what Kankri says at face value, he is supporting Cronus, and so that’s what we’ll be focusing on. 

Cronus calms down a bit from his intial lashing out, and agrees with Kankri that he doesn’t need Meenah if she isn’t going to appreciate him for who he is, and how few of his peers truly do appreciate him (singling Meulin out, lol). 

Cronus then begins to question whether Meenah was right, and if he really is doing this for attention, and if he should give up. And for a lot of younger trans people, this can be a common thought. Whether or not they really are the gender they think they are, and I don’t think I need to explain how if you think you’re trans, you are probably trans. It isn’t a mental illness that only an elite with 7 degrees can diagnose, if you feel like you’ve been born in the wrong body, or as if the world around you is looking at you wrong, or as if you yourself aren’t identifying as the right person, you are more than likely right, and you are trans. And once again I will bring up that Cronus is only 19.5, he is still by definitions a teenager, so it’s not surprising that he’s still working out his identity, and the cruelty of his peers does genuinely make him consider giving up and going back to identifying in a way that makes him more appealing to them. 

And then Kankri reassures him, letting him know that it would be a huge slap to those like Cronus, and that it’d be incredibly invalidating and triggering to them. The thing is, Cronus is the only person Kankri knows who’s identifies this way. Of course there is Horrus, who is hoofbeast kin, but that's different. Kankri specifically brings up how Cronus is alienkin, which Horrus ISN’T, and while Kankri does often talk about and discuss large groups that aren’t really a thing, this comment does seem very aimed towards Cronus. Because it is true that going back in the closet and giving up on furthering ones transition can be incredibly invalidating to ones’ self, and very triggering of dysphoria, depression, anxiety, and many other things that can stem from detransitioning. 

Kankri follows this up by saying he knows Cronus wouldn’t do this, because Cronus wouldn’t stoop that low. Kankri is, through saying this, attempting to comfort Cronus by boosting his ego. Which is an affirmation Cronus is usually desperately looking for. Kankri is a good friend and ally in this way, knowing how to reassure his friend’s identity while cheering him up at the same time in the process. Kankri then reassures Cronus that he believes in his identity, and is here for Cronus if he ever needs to talk, and that Cronus’s feelings and problems are important. 

Cronus is now cheered up, and is reassured that his identity is real, unlike magic. 

Now the thing is, this comment about magic does feel like it comes from nowhere, but this branches even further into Cronus’s masculinity. Magic within Homestuck is real, but it is a very feminine thing. There is a staunch dichotomy between the phallic imagery/masculinity of guns, and the yonic imagery/femininity of magic. Yet another play into the male Caliborn and the female calliope. Let’s take a step back and think about the use of guns in Homestuck. 

The 5 characters to use guns in Homestuck are Jade, Eridan, Roxy, Jake, and Caliborn. But Jade, Eridan, and Roxy all get rid of their guns, instead trading them in for magic. That leaves 2 characters, Jake and Caliborn. Now, we could argue about Jade and Roxy’s shedding of guns as a transfeminine metaphor, Jade even adopting the witch role, a role very close to that of a wizard. But that can be for another time, 

But this is also a reversal of Eridan specifically, who started out using guns, but then later went on to use magic, but he only began using magic after centering his identity around his attempt to establish a relationship with rose and Kanaya. Kanaya being the one who teaches Eridan about magic. Kanaya meanwhile is frequently associated with Nun/Mother imagery and themes in Homestuck, and is also a lesbian. This combined with Rose’s influence leads to Eridan’s magic use being incredibly feminine in text. 

Not only this, but wands in Homestuck are almost always portrayed with needles, which have historically in fairy tales represented womanhood, and Homestuck draws a lot of it’s tone from old fairy tales, so I think it’s safe to say that the use of needles could at the very least be a subconscious draw from those stories.  

 Meanwhile it can be assumed that Cronus attempted use magic, only to then adopt the gun. This in itself can once again be a straightforward transmale metaphor for Cronus.

And here we have another backhanded remark about otherkins, implying that otherkin people don't actually have identity issues, but instead just want to kin things because they like it. Which is not true. 

But to tie this further into Cronus’s transness, a lot of trans people don’t know they can be trans until they are introduced to the concept, a lot of people spend a long time of their childhoods and even adulthoods feeling out of place or wrong, but once you see communities and people and just know of the concept, it can all feel like its clicked into place, and it makes sense. 

So in a way yes, Cronus being introduced into human culture, a culture that does have transness, finally let him understand his feelings and make sense of them to figure out who he truly was. 

In conclusion, Cronus Ampora can easily be read as a trans man, who just wants to be validated by his peers. And though a large amount of them refuse to, Kankri is a good friend and ally to Cronus, and supports him through his transition. 

*Meenah and Aranea don’t quiet count, as they are actual characters within the story instead of a strange fever dream-esque deep dive into our author’s personal opinions on the tumblr based fanbase of Homestuck

**I am still transgender, I’ve only gotten stronger

***Assigned Gender At Birth, or in this case, Assigned Species At Birth

****yes i know theyre immortal ghosts or whatever shut up i don't care that isn't important and it basically doesn't fucking matter cause they still act and look like they're still 19.5 anyways so who CARES THIS IS AN ESSAY ABOUT TRANGENDER CRONUS FOR FUCKS SAKE

Kankri: We d9 n9t accept self-deprecating c9mmentary in this h9useh9ld, and I 6elieve y9u n9w 9we me at least 9ne p9sitive sentence.

Cronus: Awvh c’mon chief, self-confidence ain’t made in a day!

Kankri: 9ne p9sitive sentence!

Cronus: Uuuuuuuuuhhhhhhh

Cronus: I got, uh, a really cute partner?

Kankri: That wasn’t even a69ut y9u!

Cronus: But yer blushin’!

Kankri: N9T THE P9INT

Kankri:

Kankri: 6ut I still l9ve y9u and I appreciate y9ur c9mpliment.

Cronus: Yessssssss.

The fist hit Cronus’ face before he could even think to react.

When his therapist had told Cronus he needed to learn how to get his feelings out constructively, he didn’t think this was what she meant. But hell, this definitely helped. 

The crowd around the pavement ring was baying for blood as he went down with a solid thud and an ‘oof’. That stung. The left side of his jaw radiated pain and he rubbed it as he got up again. His opponent, a person much taller and much more threatening than him who went only by Dualscar in the ring, smirked at him lightly.

“Just stay down, boy. Give up.”

“Not bloody likely.” Cronus rolled his shoulders, subtly adjusting the ace bandages under his bloodied white tanktop before squaring off again. His wrapped hands rolled into fists and he raised his arms in a boxer’s guarding stance. 

Dualscar laughed and lunged again, but this time he was ready. He ducked and weaved, aiming a sharp jab at the taller man’s ribs. He was blocked by the hardest slap he’d ever felt in his life. It knocked him to the ground again and he gave a grunt as he rolled across the cement.

Along the sidelines Cronus could see his best friend looking at him nervously, hands clenched into fists at his stomach in worry. Horuss gave him a thumbs down; pull out now, you can’t keep going like this. Four matches is enough, don’t ruin it.

Cronus looked away.

“You’re outta your league, boy,” Dualscar taunted. “Come on, now, you mighta beat the other whelps here but you’re not gettin’ by me.”

Cronus spat onto the concrete and there was blood in his saliva. He wiped his mouth and looked up at the gloating fighter. It was then that he noticed a wide-open weak spot and his expression turned from sullen and angry to a wild, almost sharklike grin. Hunger burned in his eyes. 

A shiver went down Horuss’ spine as he saw that feral look in Cronus’ eyes. Cronus stood up again and cracked his neck. While Dualscar wasn’t looking he pounced, landing on the other’s back and driving his heels straight down against the other’s lower spine. The larger man let out a yelp and went down like a stone. In any legal ring, that would definitely disqualify him.

But this wasn’t a legal ring. Anything went here except weapons and the short Ampora was going to take advantage of that.

“Get offa me!” Dualscar growled, his face firmly mashed into the cement. Cronus’ grin only widened. He knelt down, pinning Dualscar. Both of them knew it; knockout was the only way to win. He pulled Dualscar’s head up roughly by the hair, a bloodthirsty look in his eyes.

“Nah.” He said, clicking his tongue and giving the older man a wink before slamming his head down into the concrete with a sickening crunch.

“Was that really necessary?”

Horuss was still grumbling as he drove not one, but two bruised and bloody bodies back to their house. Cronus Ampora Sr. had one hell of a migraine and would likely have to stay up all night to stave off a coma from his son’s final move, but he was glowing with pride. Cronus Junior looked no better, the left side of his face swollen under his ice pack and his nose once again broken from a previous fight.

“Oh, totally!” He said, giving a faint wheeze in an attempt to laugh. “About time I got a win over my old man. What do you think, huh, Pops?”

“I don’t say I’ll be doin’ much thinkin’ about anything til this concussion goes away.” He said, but there was a grin on his face nonetheless. “But good job. Now pay up.”

Cronus matched his father’s grin with one of his own. He reached down between his feet in the car, grabbing his backpack. Inside was a thick envelope with a sizable wad of cash; Cronus’ winnings for the night. He split it three ways; giving one stack to his father, and one to Horuss.