mtf akechi aka me projecting headcanon: akechi really does love how she looks- her hair, her pretty clothes, the way kusuo every once in a blue moon does begrudgingly admit that shes his girlfriend, the wide grin on aiura's face as she expresses excitement over having another girl in the psykickers- but she looks back at photos of her as a kid, before she had socially transitioned, before she had let her hair grow out and before she had changed into clothes that she liked, and she wonders if her entire existence was wasted potential.
(of course she works through these thoughts until they disappear, until her transness becomes something that she's unashamed and proud of. and it only comes as a boost to her confidence whenever aiura says the dress she's wearing is "totally cute", or when toritsuka says "you're just my type!" or when saiki, in the quiet moment where he's left alone with akechi, admits that akechi is, indeed, "the prettiest girl [he's] ever seen.")