there's simply not enough octo!Cas x pirate!Dean AU fics out there; I also liked the idea of trans!Dean where his top surgery scars mirror cecaelia Cas' own gills... and so... this collaboration with @wolfiepyxie was born 💁
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This is me trying to bypass Tumblr censorship, attempt 1
Just in case, the full fanart is on ao3
Details under the cut! (It's a bit long, I'm warning you)
Here's the frankly too long explaination.
I basically crammed in this drawing all my favourite motifs and all of my studies.
The tattoo on Sam's back is something I designed myself and represents Mater Dolorosa (Our Lady of Sorrows or Madonna Addolorata) with a stanza from the prayer "Stabat Mater" that goes as folows - "Through her soul, of joy bereaved, bowed with anguish, deeply grieved, now at length the sword hath passed."
Then we have Saint Michael slaughtering the Devil on Dean's arm. This is a mesh up of different stock images; usually Saint Michael stands over a serpent not a dragon and has a sword, not a halberd, those come from Saint George (Patron Saint of soldiers, so not a random choice)
Then there's the scripts. (Open the first pic)
The roman numbers on Dean's collarbone: II.V.XCIII = 2.5.83, Sam's date of birth.
The matching latin tattoos on their bicepts: The whole quote actually is "Nec tecum, nec sine te vivere possum" by Ovidius, which means "I can't live with you nor without you" and I thought of splitting it like that because I think it sums up their relationship pretty well. They can't be together, especially Sam imo (forever the runaway), because it's basically self-destructive, but being apart maybe is even worse (suicidal Dean anyone?).
A mandala with a mantra on Sam's tigh: गते गते पारगते पारसंगते बोधि स्वाहा . The Devanāgarī, for those unfamiliar, is a South Asian writing system. Here we have the mantra that closes the Heart Sutra "Gone, gone, gone to the other shore, Awakening, Svaha." (Svaha is the Hindu goddess of sacrifices; in a Buddhist context the term is used as denoument for mantras, espicially duing rites and offerings).
The characters on Dean's bicept, next to Saint Michael: 天罰. Those are technically Hanja aka Traditional Chinese characters used to write Korean (mostly because I first encountered this word in my korean phylology studies and that's how I know it), but they mean the same thing in Korean, Chinese and Japanese, "Divine Punishment", sooo - the only difference is the ponunciation. Korean: 천벌 (cheonbeol) Japanese: てんばつ (tenbatsu) Chinese: 天罚 (tiān fá).
Lastly, on Dean ribs, say hi to my bestie Hammurabi and his famous Code: here we have the Law 196 which actually even rocks know about; An eye for an eye. The full text says: "If a man has blinded the eye of another man, his eye will be blinded." Can't really offer you a transcript but if you're curious here's the transliteration:
" šum-ma a-wi-lum i-in DUMU a-wi-lim úḫ-tap-pí-id i-in-šu ú-ḫa-ap-pa-du " There's this really neat website here that is a digital version of the whole code and it's also my source.
ooh i’ve actually never really thought about this, but ftm!dean makes so much sense so allow me to yap. i am writing this as a cis girl so my understanding is limited, but i’m also queer and i headcanon dean as queer too, so i’m using that as a lens here. obviously, dean spent most of the show grappling with his sexuality and attraction to men, and i figure that was probably quite similar to him experiencing gender dysphoria, to which i think he would’ve carried a lot of shame around (much like his queerness), no matter how far along in his transition.
i’d like to believe dean most likely started experimenting with pronouns and dressing more masculine in those years where john left him and sam alone in motel rooms. he probably cut his hair short one night with a switchblade while sam slept, his heart racing with anxiety at what john would say when he finally returned, but i think dean seeing himself in the mirror with short hair for the first time would’ve been such a monumental gender-affirming moment.
i also think due to his adolescence consisting of constantly moving around and his only representation of “manhood” being his father and other hunters explains dean’s whole facade of hypermasculinity and emulation of his father’s behaviours—wearing john’s clothes, speaking like him, drinking, violence, etc. it would also explain why dean projected such “butchness” in the early seasons and rejected his sensitivity and femininity in order to present as ‘manly’ as he could. i mean, obviously as the series went on, dean learnt that men can be sensitive and loving… and queer, but from my view at least, his upbringing combined with the trans experience is soooo fitting for his character.
however, if we’re talking mtf trans!dean, she is beautiful and i want to kiss her so bad and devote my life to her. amen.