#touretts

Tourette's makes me question things like WHO THE FUCK IS BEN

Ok I am absolutely sick of customers at my job saying things like Oh you poor girl I feel so sorry for you I'm sorry that sucks You are an inspiration That must be so hard for you Feel better Etc It is annoying I get that I tic and I get that I have a job and I obviously get that its sometimes hard but I do not need your pity I need you to ignore it or POLITELY ask what it is Thankyou

OK feel free to ignored this but I am going to rant because I am totally pissed off So I have tourettes and lately its been getting bad and by bad I mean failing classes because I have to leave classes to calm down and not tic like mad or mess up other peoples learning and during lunch I vocal tic so much that I can't breathe and I can't stop my freinds can sometimes make it stop before I black out which I have almost done and I have been expirenceing periods of blindness that can last as long as fifteen minutes because of blinking tics or scrunching eye tics Luckilly I found something that helps at least one earphone of classic rock in my ear at all times it doesn't stop it all but it makes it so I can actually attend an entire class The school won't acknowledge "officially" that I have tourretes until I finish there bullshit testing that they have been putting off and so I can still get in trouble for wearing my earphones (though my teachers are angels and let me wear them) I was jumping through their hoops today and doing hours and hours of the stupid testing I only got to one and a half classes because of it. And the counselor comes in and says that of I want I can wear my earphones during tests but I have to be in the library she said that I can't wear then during class because then "everyone else would want to" or "everyone else would bother you about them" I have been doing this for a couple weeks and yes some kids have noticed them but there reaction wasn't "why can she wear them and I can't?" It was " oh my gosh that's amazing you go girl" because I was staying a whole period and not barking or sqeuking or clapping constantly my classmates have been nothing but supportive I think its complete and utter bullshit that they would rather "earphone equality" than actually allow me to get an education. Come on!!!!!!!

So today mildly autistic tourretes me and my mildly autistic best Freind went to go see the hobbit because we go see a movie together every month and fuck yeah hobbit. Now my turrets is a squeak and its been getting a lot worse lately so understandably I squeaked several times during the movie. There was a kid and his mom in front of us and she kept glaring at us every time I ticked I even left the movie for a minute to squeak loudly because I was really trying to keep it in when I got back the kid had moved farther away from me but the mom kept glaring eventually about halfway through the movie I squeaked and the mom whipped around and started yelling at us and I don’t mean angrily telling off I mean full on yelling huge volume about how I was making fun of her mildly autistic kid and how I was a terrible person and every time we trued to butt in to explain she just yelled louder about how rotten we were and that we were making fun of a little autistic boy we didn’t even know these people eventually we were able to tell over her after about ten minutes of her spitting abuse at us that I had turretes and I couldn’t help it she said that she was sorry that I had turrets but that she was a mother and was perfectly right in yelling at me I had no clue what to say because I have never been yelled at about it before sure given been asked to stop glared at made fun of blah blah blah  but no one had yet yelled at me this is the second time turrets has ruined  movie for me so I don’t know how we are going to spend time together ant more also now my mom says I have to make buisness cards that say I am autistic and have turretes and keep them with me at all times I don’t think I should have to do that I think people should stop being assholes and let me watch movies in peace Edit: it turns out the lady is face book friends with  my mom