#tonightsprayer

Roller coaster ride!  I admit, the opening of year 2019 was never a good one. I even ended 2018 a never good one also. Maybe, the emotion I got felt before 2018 ended has been with me when I started 2019, so it goes throughout the year though. I told myself and even almost all officemates back that 2019 is never a good year. No one listened to me. Our boss even told us that everything what’s happening is man-made, so we never blame it to whatever superstitious or beliefs. Well, the year was one of the worst and best of years of my life! ‘WORST and BEST’ ---quoted that! There are things that I can’t even imagine that I’ve done, and had decided to do and blah blah...

First, second quarter --- I was in cloud 9, literally!  When you have reached a point in your life that you don’t know why stuffs are happening, all you can do, is cry it all to God, and cry and cry until then you will understand that everything has a PURPOSE, and that even though you are doubtful why you’re doing, still you keep on doing because the feels of being you directed by God to do it! That’s what I have felt... it was never really and very life twisting story.. I was devastated with myself at everything ---but God never allowed me to miscommunicate with Him, instead, He is directing me to the path of understanding all the things. With the grace of God, he cleared my thoughts and mind to what I needed to do and understand the purpose that I should be doing. I have let myself be used with this call and challenge, and that, I have told God that even a lot will not understand --- I know and God knows we have tackled this already, dealt with it, cried, discouraged, persevered and stand up again to continue the battle.  I’m living a life now with purpose. Every waking up in the morning is an inspiration for me to do. I’m happy doing such, because I have offered to God that I’ll keep doing whatever stuffs I started doing.

For the year 2020, I will do whatever God has told me to do, and I responded to Him wholeheartedly. Thank You God. Thank You Lord for the love You have showed me. A lot of people have hurt -- they are not the only one! I have hurt my entire soul too, but, stopping and giving is not an option for me right now. All I know is to move forward, go on with the plans built for years and make those dream a reality. There are deviations with the plans, but that doesn’t mean to stop reaching what has been set, and what will make me happy --- making my family happy, helping a lot of people and fulfilling to become happy, so I keep on as I walk through this year --- 2020!