#tomylover

Reflecting on my lover as we approach our 5 year wedding anniversary next week. We were kids with our whole lives ahead of us on this September day. This day was the happiest of my life. I had found the king of my heart and i was marrying him with the prettiest diamond ring, even though i would’ve married him with a paper ring! These past 5 years have challenged us beyond belief and beyond what most couples are challenged with. We became special needs parents and a one income household. We’ve been defeated and strengthened. Our time in the daylight will come... it has to... and we will be stronger than ever before.

I’ve loved you *5* summers now, honey, but i want them all...

@taylorswift @taylornation

I am sorry.

I am pulling you down by the ankles as I am drowning at sea, not accepting your hand to help me reach shore.

and I'm sorry I've convinced you that's what you deserve.

There is so much i want to tell you,

and there is so much I don't.

everything that comes out of my mouth becomes an apology.

To my lover,

I am sorry.

You are my sunshine and I am decaying; I am eroding.

You do not deserve me, because you deserve so much more

and I will never be more. My rot is not enough to fill a stomach.

When hurricane of insanity

Pass through this mind,

I stare into your dark brown eyes

You'd wispher, "It's all illusion"

You're the reality, my gravity

Holding me in place

Containing me in this space —