"I know that we're destined to break." Tomoya x FEM Reader
Synopsis: When Tomoya's eyes landed on you, he got this odd feeling something was weird with you. It made his heart flutter, and for no reason... he felt a tug that told him to get closer to the "man" that he's interested in.
Pairing: Tomoya x FEM Reader, One sided Rui Mizuki x FEM Reader Content Warning: ANGST NO COMFORT just slight!! AND SPOILERS FOR HAUNTED HOST CLUB (OBSCUARY EPISODE) if you have NOT read it, DO NOT READ. HEAVY SPOILERS. A/n: HI, omg I finally managed to FINISH SOMETHING??? HI HI GUYS I MISSED ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!! I hope you like this cause I didn't wanna beta read it, I'm sorry! so this is just raw writing power. My bad for the multiple errors, I went with what I can write so yes! I'll try catching up more writing during break, I love you all. Enjoy! I hope yall like Tomoya, he was so cute, maybe a bit OOC cause we never really established what he was honestly.
There was an odd feeling that Tomoya felt when he saw the new batch of newbies after Seia came inside the employeeâs prep room first. His eyes usually would ignore the way they look at him like heâs a challenge (which he is). Theyâre all competing for the best hosts here every 6 months. Since Seia just decided to announce his head as the target, youâd expect that these newbies would glare at himâĻ
But no, one guy looked at him like heâs asking to be entertained, the blonde one looks just happy to meet new hosts, one of them look pissed off though, heâs unsure if itâs cause of the hierarchy here. Whatever the reason is. He already despises the guy.
Clicking his tounge, he didnât wanna handle idiots who doesnât understand the industry. His eyes darted from each host, till it reached to you. While Seia was busy yapping to the blondie. You on the other hand, look incredibly basic.
But for some reason, he couldnât stop observing you keenly, like he discovered a new type of man in this field. Heâs always surrounded by both, pretty girls, pretty boys. Heck, of course heâs one himself.
But your beauty precedes every visual appeal that his eyes had observed. You look basicâĻ but in an endearing way.
When you noticed him staring at you. It caused you to feel a bit shy, but bold enough to flash a sweet smile. He stiffened a bit causing him to look away immediately.
âJust donât get in my wayâ he scoffed, leaving as Seia tried to get him back to greet the newbies.
He didnât need to greet them. They all leave anyways. When work started, you were the only one without requests. It made him pity you honestly, the poor little host who canât get princesses. You couldâve just worked at the kitchen and youâll be just fine, not being pushed by others to go serve drinks or be a shadow of other hosts.
When you fell down, spilling the drink on one of the princesses, he saw the way your eyes looked so guilt stricken. Apologizing to the angry patron while the other host, which is Gen tried to pull the princess away from you.
âI - Iâm so sorry!â you squeaked out, bowing so low that he flinched at the future back pain youâre gonna get afterwards. Placing his cup down, he flashed a charming smile at his princess. âIâll have to go help the little fawn thereâ he gestured by tilting his head seemingly pointing at you. âOh! poor boyâĻâ the princess said, watching âGo ahead!â she chirps, heck seeing him eager to help another host got her swooning, women are weird.
Tomoya stood up, walking towards you, he clasped his hand on your shoulder, pulling you to sit up straight as he signaled Rui to get a staff to get the princess new fancy clothes. âWe apologize for our new fawnâ he said, touching the princessâ hand and giving it a kiss. âWe promise to confiscate you in the most necessary wayâ he murmured, soft enough to hear just to deescalate the situation. When he finished, the princessâ anger disintegrated and she just giggled to herself while Rui went to pull her away.
You, on the other hand, he noticed your hand trembling. He usually wouldâve just scolded you for almost losing a patron, but with the way you looked like youâre about to cry. He decided to go against it and usher you to the side, where no eyes can watch and judge.
âAre you okay?â he asked, sharp enough to make it not sound that he has a soft spot for you. Tears started to accumulate into your eyes, not used to fucking up things for yourself. âI am so sorryâ you sob quietly, wiping your tears with your fingers. âI got overwhelmed-â
âYou donât need to explain yourselfâ he said, looking away, he leaned on the wall. âItâs your first day,â he pulls out a pack of cigars, and shook it a bit for one to go out. âThings are bound to not go your way when youâre just starting out.â
Offering the cigar to you. He noticed the way your eyes widen, and immediately shook. âNot a smoker?â he asked, as you continued to wipe your tears. âNoâĻ Iâm still sorry for causing trouble, are you taking a break?â you asked, grabbing your napkin, it looked quite girlish. Maybe it came from your girlfriend?
Whatever. Why is he so interesting in knowing about your life? he shouldnât be. He lit up his cigarette, going out to the side where thereâs an opening but not visible to the princesses being served by the other hosts.
âI decided to help you out before you made yourself a fool thereâ he answered rather harshly, taking a slow drag and letting the remnants of burnt cigar fall down from a high height. You just stood there, watching, or observing him. âDo you not interact with women occasionally? friends? sisters? mothers?â he asked, glancing back at you while his body still remains in the same position.
âNo..â you admitted, âBut theyâre not the only ones I get embarrassed around, itâs people in generalâ you continued, fidgeting with your fingers. âIâm sorry for keeping you here Tomoyaâ you bowed once again. âYouâll hurt your back bowing so lowâ he chuckled to himself as he taps the cigar on the edge. âLearn to be confidentâ
Why is he giving advice to the enemy? but either way, with your performance being so poorly, their reputation might get tarnished, so he guessed itâs better to give advice. âIâll let you in on some adviceâ he said, finishing his smoke and walking towards you.
You caught the whiff of cigarettes on him, he grabs a perfume in his pocket, spraying it on himself to hide the scent. When he was taking long strides to you, it made you unconsciously back away. Sure, this isnât your first rodeo on men invading your personal space, but the way he was staring at you got your heart jumping out.
He didnât care though, he got you on the wall, he places his hand near the side your head before he leans to your ear, breath warm on it causing you to shudder. âHow about you try and watch from other hosts like us so you can catch on what the princesses âreallyâ want?â
It almost felt like he purred that word into your ear, causing your breath to hitch, âyesâ you mumbled, voice a bit too high pitched. Satisfied he pulled away, pushing you out of the âbreak down roomâ or whatever. âThen thatâs it, go on rookie. Donât disappoint me.â he said, before you could even turn around, he already closed the door, occupying the space used by other hosts.
âTry and watchâĻâ you thought as you huffed, slapping your cheeks for determination. Youâll try looking at how Rui and Ed do it, so far, theyâre the ones with customers already. Seia too!
As you left, taking his advice to heart, he stood there, frozen near the door. He groaned, scratching his head. âShitâ he hissed to himself. He didnât know what spell you just placed on him to have this immediate soft spot with the way you cried. Did you remind him of his sister that he loved so much?
He doesnât fucking know. Either way, In the first day, you didnât get a princessâĻ
But you got a prince.
As the months continued, he started seeing improvements on you. Well, more like a Tiktok video ended up going viral with you dancing with a famous influencer. It got him overthinking if the guy was your boyfriend because of how handsy he was with you. Is the guy gay? ugh.
When he clocked in, he didnât realize how big of the influence Leo Kurosagi had, when a bunch of women were piled up in your spot, eager to see you in the flesh, the host that Leo personally vouched as a good friend of his?
He clicked his tounge, glaring at the door. A man that he canât beat, someone youâre close with thatâs more famous than him.
Why are you eager to learn his ways when you can just ask a man like that?
He couldnât help but feel a bitter ache in his chest about it. Before work started, all of the hosts were gathered around to give a few reminders, and he warned you that the customers outside were mostly coming for you.
He wonders if itâs because of his advice or what. When words of encouragement were passed from one host to another, you, who was beside him, glanced his way.
âLetâs do our best Tomoyaâ you said, flashing him the cutest smile heâd ever seen, making his own mysterious and lone wolf personality falter.
ââĻYou tooâ he answered rather meekly, trying to balance himself from getting blown away by his own feelings.
Yes, he knows heâs falling for you.
He couldnât keep his eyes away from you for one second. He even thought he was getting away glancing at you all the time so discreetly, but women in general are observant and he got one of his princesses pissed because of it.
âTomoya!â they huffed and puffed, âyouâve been staring at that host for so long! youâre not giving me any attentionâ she crossed her arms, looking away with a gentle pout. He scratched his head and tried his best to go back to his one-dimensional personality to woo the woman, but she wasnât buying it. Standing up and walking out.
A first time he flunked a princess, all because he was worried for you. He sighed, deciding to stand up and walk into the break room for now.
While you were entertaining the princesses. you noticed Tamayo going to the break room, looking dejected, with the princess heâs entertaining huffing at the side with the bartender. Once youâre done with a few princesses, you had to take a quick break, managing to slip into the break room.
Tomoya was slouching there, looking drained, so you take it upon yourself to brew him coffee, maybe get a snack first.
But before you could even do that, his tired voice rang throughout the room. âFawn, donât botherâ he said, putting his arm down to look at you. âWeâve been drinking beer and soda for the whole day you think I want to get something to eat now?â he chuckles, seeing the way you turned flustered, looking like a deer caught in headlights.
âWhat else can I do to help?â you asked, deciding to sit beside him. âWeâre still on the clock; I thought maybe coffee could help you spring back upâ
â I wishâ he laughs, deciding to stare at the ceiling. âI just got distractedâ he muttered, thinking you didnât hear him, but you did.
âBy what?â you probed. His cheeks turned a bit red, before looking away. âYou suck at being a hostâ he said out of nowhere. You stiffen, frowning before looking down at your lap. âIâm tryingâ you tried to defend yourself. âI didnât know I was getting in the way a lot,â
Wrong fucking move Tamayo, he thought to himself, mentally spiking his brain like a volleyball. âI didnât mean-â his words died down causing him to groan in frustration. âYouâre improving, donât worryâ
âBut you said-â
â I just, couldnât stop worrying about youâ he cut you off, causing you to peel your eyes away from your lap back at his face. âI was worried you were getting overwhelmed and ...â he crossed his arms, still not looking at you but even without it you can see how his ears were flushed red. âI thought maybe I can go finish on my princesses and try to woo yours, so they pick meâ
â So that I could get rest?â you asked
âSo that you can get a restâ he affirmed, voice soft a contrast to his persona as a host, this made you smile, out of everything, the crazy missions you go to, the incompetence that you feel when youâre surrounded by non-human ability-stricken ghouls. This man was clueless about that world, a human, just like you.
Of course, you canât help but feel a bit of warmth being able to finally communicate with someone that was powerless like you. JustâĻ normal. âYouâre funnyâ you chuckle, causing him to glare at you confused. âWanting you to get rest is funny?â
You nudge his sides, making him grunt. âYou want Harasaka to flame you again?â you teased causing him to stand up and just stretch.
âYouâre right, heâd go âWhy are you two in the break room again? if you donât go out and entertain the princesses, youâll start making us lose moneyâ the way he was impersonating your manager made you both laugh.
âReal funny, isnât it?â you froze, hearing the door creak open, and Harasaka was there, if looks could killâĻ âget back to work you twoâ
âYes sirâ both of you said defeatedly. glancing at Tomoya, he looked like heâs feeling better, which was a relief.
After work was done, Tomoya was supposed to invite you to get dinner but he saw that you were surrounded by your âFriendsâ again, and that gangster wannabe glaring at him for staring at you for too long. He debated whether or not he should try and still talk with you.
In his brain, why the fuck not honestly? he thought to himself, walking towards you causing the others to open up a path for him. In this Host club, Seia aside, heâs the top 1. He shouldnât feel like he needs to accommodate these rookies.
âHeyâ he said, your eyes already fixated on him, giving him that cute smile âHeyâ you said it back, his hand on your shoulder. âI think we deserve a celebratory feast for being number 2 right?â he suggested. Rui looked at him like he just snatched the person heâs been aiming for, which Tomoya knowsâĻ he just didnât care and considered it as competition.
âSure!â are they invited? you asked, ânope, only top twoâ he said in a sing song voice before dragging you away, âIf they get the next top spot, Iâll bring them with me one on oneâ
â Oi-â Lyca tried to interrupt but Ed stopped him. âLet them be...â he smiled, leaning his head on Lycaâs shoulder. âThe humanâs obviously expressing some affection to our dear Inspectorâ he muttered, Ruiâs face soured. âHuh? and heâs already making a move?â
â Maybe Lycaâs right Hosts are trashâ Rui crossed his arms, watching the love of his life get taken away by another guy, worse, heâs not even a ghoulâĻ just a host.
And yetâĻ he saw it, the way your eyes lit up, casually saying goodbye to the three of them. Heck, you didnât even look at him much, you just waved and both of you left.
It made his heart ache, his lips turning into a thin line that was noticed by Lyca and (probably) ignored by Ed. âYou okay Blond Giggolo?â he asked, a bit worried for the reaper.
Rui snapped out of it, scratching the back of his head. âWell - canât be helped!â he chirped, turning around to remove his Host uniform. âIf cutie wants to ditch us for a dinner date with the top 1 host, we clearly couldnât keep her eyes on usâ he joked, even though it stinged his heart.
Ed liked that look though. âYouâre rightâ he wraps his arms around Rui, leaning close to his ear. âMaybe you should step up your gameâĻ Genâ he sneered, causing Ruiâs whole body to activate his fight or flight to jump away from the vampire. âStop harassing me and go change!â he growled, making Ed laugh. Did he really think that Rui would ever succumb into thinking about stealing Honor Roll like that??
Absolutely notâĻ!
When you left with Tomoya, he released your shoulder, only walking just besides you. âSorry about thatâ he muttered, making you laugh a bit. âFor what?â
â Being so forcefulâ he continued, he really just wanted it to be just you and him to go out. âI donât really know if your friends trust me yetâ he looked upfront, watching peopleâĻ or rather, couples walking side by side, the girl holding the guyâs arm, his eyes darted back to you, hoping youâd do the sameâĻ
What is he thinking? heâs acting like some kid in high school who just got his first crushâĻ
Which is accurate cause heâs been so focused on keepng his family alive that his lovelife was getting dust and flies hovering around it. Only you decided to awaken his desire to have a lover. âWhere do you wanna go eat?â He asked, wow, he kind of sucks. Heâs a host but he outright asked you what to eat. If he remembered thatâs likeâĻ donât ask what a girl wants 101 given by Leonardo cause they love it more when you know what they want first.
Yet, all of that rizz stuff flies out the moment he watches you, the red district night lights making your prettiness shine. Like a firefly he used to see back in his hometown. The type he would wait till midnight, till every light was off so that they can finally shine.
ThatâsâĻ what he thought you of.
His heart flutters, cheeks turning beet red at the sight of you. Is this how the girls felt when they watch their favorite host take their seats with them? he thought, his hand twitching, aching to hold your hand.
Do it, Tomoya. He encouraged himself, yet due to him being so fixated on your hand, it suddenly vanished, as you touched his cheek with the back of your fingers, âYou okay?â you asked, he was dazed, staring down at where your hand was earlier causing him to snap out of it. âHuh?â
â I said I wanted to eat something that feels celebratoryâ You smiled, putting your hand down to intertwine it with his. âYou wanna go to the ramen shop outside?â you suggested that his eyes twinkling and softening. âSureâ
âItâs my treatâ you declared, swaying both your hands together, he laughs at the audacity you have. âI think if we were in a relationship Iâd be topâ he joked, making you both giggle together. âNo way! youâre like that tsundere!â
âtsundere?â he gasped, looking down at you before letting your hand go and pulling you by the waist. âWith this waist you think you can top?â he teases, the moment he pulled you, that caused you to squeak and blush.
âThatâs sensitive!â you reprimanded, making him blush a bit from the sound you made, but he pushed through, keeping one hand on your waist. âYouâre so bold,â you added, but didnât stop him.
âI thrive to dive headfirst into flirting when it comes to my clientsâ
âSoâĻ do i pay?â you lit up, your hand resting on his wrist instead, you two looked like lovers.
âNoâ
The night after, Tomoya bid farewell to you after getting you back âhomeâ where you ushered him to go when you got nearer Darkwick.
Humming to yourself, as you walk back alone, tapping your card, the kitty meowed at you, as you pet it, you noticed a familiar blond leaning on the poll on the waiting shed. Your eyes lit up, seeing Rui there. Has he been waiting for you?
âRui!â you called out, waving to him, he stood straight, smile not reaching to his eyes as he waves back. âCutie!â he said cheerfully, âHow was your..date?â he asked, you walked towards him, almost ready to bombard him with how your âdateâ went.
â Heâs really nice, he bought me food and got me some take outsâ you babbled, showing the plastic full of food. âHe said that-â Rui already stopped listening as you enthusiastically yapped about it. How you had so much fun in just a few hours. Which he tried his hardest to make you smile before. Yet you continued frowning, of course he didnât mind, but why does a mere human like Tomoya make you forget about your curse but when itâs him, itâs like heâs constantly reminding you of it?
âThatâs greatâ he said, trying his best to sound like his heart wasnât fucking breaking. But unfortunately, you, his cutie, is too observant for your own good. âWhatâs wrong Rui?â you asked, upsetting him, he wished he could just tell you how he felt, before you started looking like you like the guy.
âDo you like him?â he asked, his voice faltering at each word, as he noticed the difference in your scent, you didnât smell like your usual perfume. It was more of a stronger scent. A masculine one.
Tomoyaâs? Was he that close with you. You blush a bit, looking down. âI-â
âSo you doâ he finished, he didnât wanna hear it. âIâm glad for you Honor Rollâ
Your smile faltered, he went back to calling you Honor Roll for some reason? âRui? whatâs wrong?â before you could even touch his arm, the loud ring of the expressway came. You couldnât see his face, as he turned a bit, âLetâs go? Itâs already so lateâ he said, you didnât notice the little quiver of his voice as you both board the expressway.
The whole ride felt awkward, it was rare for Rui to be so silent, arm resting on the windowsill, just watching the trees pass, waiting for the Expressway to do itâs magic. Your sweat dropped, looking at your food, trying to think about what you did. Was it because you just half-heartedly waved at them before leaving with Tomoya.
You didnât know, you tried your best to wrack your brain but none come up. You heard Rui sigh a bit, âIâm sorryâ he apologized, pressing his fingers on his nose. âI didnât know what came over me, Iâm sorry cutieâ he muttered, bowing to you. This made you smile a bit.
âItâs okay-! Iâm sorryâ you apologized as well. âI didnât think it through to not even say goodbye properly to all of you before leaving.â You went to rummage in your bag, grabbing a apple candy. âHereâs a token of apologyâ you said. Smiling at him.
You didnât even know why he was upset, he could feel his body turning cold, finally looking at you. He accepted it. Watching the apple candy gleam under the moonlight, it felt somewhat mocking, how an apple could have made you appreciative of this man. âThis looks yummy cutieâ
âThank youâ
Everything went smooth for the next few days, until the death of Seia. You and the Jake found his body in such a grotesque way. When Harasaka broke the news, Tomoyaâs heart dropped. He considered Seia as a competition, without himâĻ what use does he have being here?
He looked down, noticing the way your hand was shaking. He wrapped his hand on yours, giving you a gentle squeeze. Tomoya knew you cried the whole time, eyes puffy from what youâve seen. You werenât close with Seia, but maybe, the guyâs wholesome personality and being a happy-go-lucky made you think of him as a close friend.
âI got youâ he whispered, you gave him a slight smile , steeling yourself a bit, and going close to him. âOkayâ you muttered back. Little did you know, one of the host was staring at both of you, and deciding to look away, before he hurt himself too much. You had to part ways with him for now. Needing time to focus on your mission. You hid it in the pretense of needing alone time to yourself.
And Tomoya, he knows a person needs her time, especially after something like thatâĻ He watches as more and more girls horde you. He guessed working more means youâll be able to distract yourself from what happened. He decided that since youâre working hardâĻ Heâd work hard with you.
In the hopes that he would ask you for one thingâĻ Tomoya stared at his breast pocket, where his resignation letter was in.
He hopes youâd come with him when the time comes. After work was done, he wanted to get your attention, till Cross went in front of him, effectively blocking his way to you while you talk to the two other guys. âHey-â he glared at Ed, who looked behind eyes glinting under the night light. âSorry about that, top 1â he hummed, giving him that smile that caught every princess's attention.
âWeâre gonna borrow your sweetling for a bit yeah?â he turned his head back, making Tomoya felt helpless, when Ed stared at him, it caused his whole blood to freezeâĻ
Like he was dangerous. The hand that was supposed to be back where it was, your waist, your hand didnât make it as he walks away, tucking the resignation letter and going to Leonardoâs office first instead.
Heâll tell you next time.
You went on a meeting with the other three ghouls, as you tried to decipher with them the case. It made you rack your brain because it was a bit confusing. The ghost you saw and the time you almost died because of the girl who was apparently named SachieâĻ You wanted to ask Tomoya about it but Ed smoothly pushed that thought away. Telling you indirectly that he was one of the new hostsâĻ he doesnât know anything.
This made Tomoyaâs departure more painful, when Harasaka announced it, that heâll only be working for 2 weeks. Your hurt gaze made his heart ache that he had to look away. âI-â
â Iâm leaving this biz for family reasonsâ he stated, finally staring at all of them - well you specifically. âHonestly, i felt pretty conflicted about it whether I should do this after claiming number one butâĻâ
He stepped closer, putting a hand on Kaworuâs shoulder, he kept his contact with you, just like how you both first met. âI think he deserves the top 1 more than meâ he gave you a small smile, but you didnât return it back. âTomoya-â
He leaned down to your ear, just as he did back then in the breakroom. âAfter work, come meet me out, I wanna talk with youâ He muttered it like a secret. It felt so soft, just like the first time he did it.
Except this time, it felt more raw than the other. âIâll tryâ you answered, not really sure if you can talk with him while the mission is ongoing. It pains you that you canât tell him any details, especially when heâs been an anchor to you even if it was just a few months. That gave you your answer when the anomaly âSachieâ popped out, causing you to stiffen.
You donât want to endanger him, Heâs just a civilian, and yet he pulled away, eyes filled with love as if reminding you that this sweet dream that youâre having wonât last long, that you will have to light up the mesmer match yourself and make him forget about all of this,to make him forget about you.
All for his sake.
He walks out, looking at peace. âIâll see you laterâ he mouthed, closing the door as work continued after, cause of the meeting with the ones who wonât be leaving Your spot. You didnât have time to say goodbye, as the moment he shut the door, Harasaka started screaming. Telling a ghost to get away from himâĻ
He waited.
Waited for you to pop out of the store, but he never saw you, he didnât even know that Harasaka died, and that had you going with the ghouls as well. He didnât have your contact number either. Forgetting to even ask. âShitâ
He sighed, closing his phone, should he go home? he noticed your spot was already closed. He went to go around it, seeing you, he wanted to go run up to you, till he noticed you looked scared. An arm placed around you, seemingly by Gen.
Yeah - his eyes arenât deceiving himâĻ Thatâs Gen.
His brows furrowed, he didnât want to doubt you. He didnât know what happened so Maybe - just maybe that he was misunderstanding. Yeah, you wouldnât do thatâĻ
The next day, he saw you again, but this time, you werenât going to him, you were looking troubled, getting help from either one of the three hosts you came with. He really wants to help, if you just let him in, whatever you were thinking about he could help.
It turned him sour, causing him to glare at the other hosts instead of focusing on Purin, the princess heâs supposed to care for. âThat GenâĻâ he snarked. Purin pouted. âWhy are you so mad at him, focus on me!â she whined, but it was just static in his ears. He continued to stay in a bad mood. While you were busy with the mission. Hoping to find a way to decipher it.
He tried. He really tried, yet whenever he tried to get you alone, the one or another was blocking him. As if whatever problem they had was more important.
âFawnâ he walked to you, the breakroom being a silent sanctuary when the hosts are overwhelmed. âAre you oka-â
âKawuroâ Harasaka opened the door. âTable six, go immediately, VIP seatâ he called bluntly before closing the door. It made you stand up, brushing your hand with his. âIâll talk with you when I can Tomoyaâ you smiled, although fakely. Within that few seconds, he noticed how tired you were. Eyebags deep under your eyes. He knew you were juggling school with workâĻ
It caused his heart to ache, effectively shutting him up as the door closed with a soft click.
He felt like you were closing your heart to him. Shutting him out. And he doesnât blame you. After all, why do the hosts kept dying, and you managed to witness one of them to perish.
He bit his lip to the point it bled, as Harasaka called him, summoned by another princess
It went on for the last few days of his work. After that, all of you were told that the next day (which is the last day of his work) was free, and it was supposed to make him happy, but not being able to see you filled him with dread. Sure, it hurts him plenty and upset him that he couldnât say his plans with you properly.
Back when his feeling started developing for you, it was great. He started to think that if he asked you to run away with him, live with him and be together. Youâd surely say yes.
But nowâĻ he doesnât know, but that doesnât matter, this time heâll ask you.
You and the others suddenly started running towards the highest floor, the roof top, causing him to look confused and run with you. âFawn where are you going?â he managed to ask, running to the steps with you.
â Leonardoâ you answered; adrenaline pumping as you slam the door open. âHeâs in danger- wait!â you screeched as Tomoya noticed that he was reaching the edge of the tower.
âLeo!â he gasped, eyes zeroing at his boss, but before he could even bolt there, a ghostly woman came, stoppingâĻ whatever was luring Leonardo in. Tomoya glanced at Jake, who just had turned into some kind of wolf
âWhat..?â He was lost, and it was irritating him. âFawn, what-?â he tried to grab you, only for you to unconsciously pull your hand away, putting it on your chest. âThank godâ you muttered, looking at him, âThatâsâ you panic a bit, looking at Lyca.
âOh donât worryâ Ed said, watching the scene unfold as Leonardo falls on the floor. âWeâll just make him forget, right? Honor roll?â he places his hands in his pockets. Tomoya furrowed his eyebrows in confusion.
âHonor roll?â he repeated back, looking at you. âIsnât that a bit too feminine of a nameâĻ?â
And then it hit him.
You werenât just a feminine boyâĻ you were actually a woman. âOh-â
You didnât really expect such a relaxed reaction from it, then again , it wasnât that big of a news that you were crossdressing as a man. âIâm sorry for deceiving youâ He shook his head, laughing a little cause he did piece two and two together. âI was pretty much ready to be gayâ he joked, âI still feel the same.. either wayâ he muttered, âWhatâs going on, Honor roll?â he asked, finally being able to talk to you. âYou can tell meâ
You frowned, as he takes a hold of your hand. You looked down, instead of feeling your heart fluttering at the gentle handsome smile he gave youâĻ
You just felt dread. You looked at Lyca, Rui and Ed. Hoping that their expression said anything but all of them looked.. off. As if rejecting the thought of ever letting a normal human in the world of anomalies/ghouls and what not.
You were torn. But not for long, as you held his hand back, taking a deep breath as you. Even if it means that heâll lose his memories, at least youâll be able to know that he existed to be your.. friend. In some way.
âLetâs talk downstairs, yeah?â you answered, giving him a reassuring smile. He nods as all of you make your way downstairs.
While doing so, you could feel the worried gazes of your friends behind you, but you didnât want to tell them the reason. The Mesmer match in your breast pocket was ready.
This mission is about to be over anyways. If you manage to actually uncover who the killer is by tomorrow. Tomoya can go back to his sister, without you in it.
You sat down with him where heâs usually summoned by princesses. This time, not as the host, but as his princess. Leonardo wanted to give both of you privacy, especially after nearly dying. Your friends deciding that since youâre going to do the deed. You might as well enjoy another human being that is magicless, similar to you.
He wasâĻ amazing, you realize why the girls kept wanting him. âIâm sorry that I am too broke to try and buy your time with meâ you teased him as you drink the tea he made from the break room. He laughs, âFor you Honor roll, anythingâs freeâ he flirted causing you to take a deep breath just to relax.
âYou damn flirtâ scowling, you glare at him playfully, which he flashed his smile against. Unfortunately for you, you lost. You ended up telling him about your story. How you ended up in Darkwick, stopping from time to time to let him process the information.
âThatâs.. toughâ he frowned, the tea he made was already cold just from eagerly wanting to hear from you. âYouâre cursedâ he looked down, âand you have a year left?â he continued, feeling bad for you. âOh no itâs fine,â You lied, âthe ghouls you met are trying to help me with itâ
âBut like you saidâ he looked back at you âThereâs no progress for 5 months alreadyâ pointing it out, you flinched from what he said. âYeah- But that doesnât mean iâll stop trying, even if the chances are slim to 0.01%â
Tomoya knows he should be happy that youâre telling him all this butâĻ
He canât shake off the feeling that you were keeping one thing youâre hiding from him. And he was not stupid.
âYouâre freely telling me everything.â he blurted it out, gripping on the little cup. Hoping that he probably has it wrong. âAre you going to erase my memory? about youâ
He finally decided to face you, âAbout us?â
This caused you to stiffen up, guilt etched on your face, causing you to avoid his eye contact. âPleaseâ he said, voice laced with sadness. âPlease look at me and answer me Honor rollâ
âAm i going to forget about you?â He asked again.
You bit your lip, darting your eyes anywhere but him, but with his voice sounding so desperate you canât ignore him for so long. ââĻ yesâ
A wave of silence washed over the table where you two were in. Tomoya chuckles to himself. âI guess It was never meant to beâ he said to himself bitterly, but it was loud enough for you to hear.
âWhat do you mean?â you asked, your heart breaking at each and every word he just said. âWhat do you mean by that Tomoya?â
âI wanted to ask if you wanted to quit with meâ he admitted. âYou were with them, - your ghoul friendsâ
âIâm sorry-â you choked out, tears finally starting to stroll down your cheeks, causing Tomoya to panic. Making a girl cry is the least he wants to do.
So he breaks his own rule, standing up and going to the other side. Near where you are. Even if it meant this would be the last time heâd ever be able to hold you.
He pulled you into his arms, crushing you with the weight of him. You felt the warmth of his body, as you wrapped your arms around him. âTomoya - Iâm so sorryâ you buried your face into his shoulder. âI didnât mean to-â
âItâs okayâ he soothed, âdonât cry- donât cryâ he rubs your back. âItâll be okay, weâll see each other againâ or at least he hoped so. If you truly are the one for him, then fate will allow it to happen once more.
You calmed down as he continued his repeated phrases, that was luring you to relax, to rest in the arms of the human you ended up liking. âYou have to do it soon right?â he asked, pulling away from you but ending up holding your hand instead. You didnât want to. You wanted him to be around at least.
âYeah-â you grabbed the Mesmer match with your free hand. âDo you want to do it now?â he asked, âSo that, later, you wouldnât feel hurt that much?â
You didn't want to, you didnât want to, you didnât want to.
But the way he was looking at you, like he was prepared himself, and just waiting for you to be ready, forced you to put on a brave face. âOkayâ you answered, gripping on his hand a bit too tightly, but he didnât care, he wanted to feel you one last time, just enough that even when you leave him, heâd still yearn for you.
The woman that he ended up loving.
You lit up the match, as it shone a beautiful small fire, even he admired it, another thing he admired aside from you. âHonor roll?â he called you out as you got distracted by the fire.
âYes-?â you gasped, feeling his hand touch your cheek and he pulls you for a kiss, a soft one. You stiffen up, feeling your heart break as tears start to fall down your cheeks again. You kissed him back, gripping on his hand, wanting to leave a mark on him.
When you pulled away, the smoke started precipitating, covering the small area that surrounded the both of you. âI love you,â he said, breathless, smiling as he pressed his forehead to yours. âCome back to me, when youâre ready Honor -â he said, but stopped as his memories started turning foggy.
You sobbed as the smoke envelopes him, âI.. - I willâ you reassured one last time, before letting him go and slipping away before he woke up from the short slumber caused by the mesmer match.
âRollâĻâ Tomoya blinked, confused as he looks around. âStrangeâĻâ he thought to himself heâs a picky sleeper so dozing off where heâs working was odd. âI donât remember being seated where the princesses are..â Fin
