#nexz

You’d been hired as a back up singer to replace two members in a group. It was rather odd as you are a woman in an all boy group and much younger . The fans didn’t take it so well, upset that a girl would be working with their faves 24/7. You only got hired because you knew Felix and he appreciated your vocals and he brought you up to Chris and with some consideration you got in. It was also well known you wrote your own songs (with the help of your boss). You temporarily slept on the couch in Chris’ and Jeongin’s apartment with the company planning to move you in with Hyunjin in two weeks and eventually keeping the place to yourself. 

Today you had to be at JYPE at 5 a.m. and let’s just say you haven’t gotten used to the idol work ethic quite yet. At home you got to choose your own schedule and when you released your music as long as your boss said yes, but here it was 10 hours of work 7 days a week. Being a temporary member of 3racha didn’t make things any better. Even after you clocked out you still were always making and editing lyrics. You decided to head to a coffee shop nearby. Idols went there all the time unbothered, and luckily for you people still weren’t used to you yet so you still had some freedom. You ordered your usual and decided to scroll on your phone a bit. You made the mistake of opening twitter and the first thing you saw: popular Korean band welcomes western artists to replace missing members 

You scrolled down. Nothing you haven’t seen before, just another news source trying to gain views. But then you read the comments… you knew you shouldn’t have but you did anyway. 

She’s so ugly 

How can someone so untalented get the chance to be with them?

Her music isn’t even good 

I hope she doesn’t think she has a chance with the members!

And just more comments calling you ugly and talentless. What a bunch of losers you thought . People these days have nothing else to do with their lives. As you were reading more comments you felt something tap on your shoulder. You turned around.

“I think your drink is ready” you can’t even make this up. You’d never seen a man so beautiful in your whole life until now. He was tall and had wavy brown hair with a sharp jawline , he had full lips and the prettiest eyes you’ve seen.

“I think your drink is ready” he said in a nervous tone.You didn’t mean to stare, but I mean who wouldn’t? 

“Umm sorry, Y/N sunbae?” You snapped out of the trance he had you in, but wait he knew who you were? You didn’t  think any of the other idols payed enough attention to who you were. It was obvious they all knew stray kids was enlisting but did they really know who you were? 

“Oh- um thanks… sorry I wasn’t paying attention.” He nodded nervously before quickly leaving the building before you could say anything more. How embarrassing, you were basically drooling over your junior right in front of him. You quickly grabbed your drink and ran to the building. 

You entered the room and there sat all three 3racha members they turned to face you. 

“I made sure you were awake and left before I did. How could still possibly be late?” Chan had asked.

“I’m sorry I went to get coffee I didn’t realize what time it was it won’t happen again.” You stared at your feet in anticipation.

“Whatever, you know I don’t care. I’d just like for you to be on time when we have an important meeting.” Chris had never been one to get on you for anything unless it was serious. Today was the day you’d officially start participating in promotions and you had to be here before the other members to discuss your future role as a writer and producer. It was a wild story truly as to how you’d even gotten famous. You were in an abusive relationship and one night someone in the distance stood by and watched as you were being screamed at. They followed you to make sure you were okay. You worked at a hospital in the day and on the side you sang at a bar sometimes. The person turned out to be no other than FINNEAS himself. He was impressed by your talent and what felt like overnight you had moved away and started a new life with a new name. FINNEAS had started his own company for him and his sister and was looking for more artists to put under his name. You showed him some of your work and he was impressed. Within a couple weeks he promoted you and you debuted your first EP which blew up overnight. Now here you were in a different country living with people you just met , but they were the sweetest people. 

After work you took the train station. You couldn’t get that boy from earlier out of your head. You had to find out who he was. It was strictly forbidden that idols date the first three years with their contract at JYPE, but your contract was only for three years so it didn’t apply to you. And when signing your manager made sure there were other accommodations like you wouldn’t be dress like the other girl idols since you were covered in scars by your ex, and that you had a separate diet plan and you also could manage your own accounts. When you got back you ate dinner, washed up, and went to sleep.

The next day you went in with Jeongin. As you two were talking you saw him again. You HAD to know who he was.

Before you even thought about it you violently pulled his arm.

“I.N. Who is that man?” You said a little too desperately. He just looked at you and then smirked at you.

“Jeongin im being serious I need to know who he is.”

He started at you for a second trying to decide if he should actually tell you. 

“His name is Seita, He’s from nexz. Why do you ask?”

“I was just curious I saw him yesterday”

“Uh huh sure , just curious.”

“Shut up I just wanted to know”

“Sure. He’s you’re age” 

“Okay? Why do I need that information?” You asked trying to avoid suspicion, but he just laughed at you anyways.

That night you looked him up. Sure enough he actually was your age. He was from Japan and their rapper. You decided to watch the groups performance and my god just watching them made your joints hurt. Although he was a rapper he was really good at dancing and he had this soft voice you could listen to for hours. You turned over and just kept replying your encounter with him in your head, the way he smiled at you the first time.

You needed to speak to him. But you didn’t know how you’d find time. They’re always so busy flying back and forth between here and Japan and you didn’t know how you’d face him after you froze up in front of him. 

Nothing could’ve prepared you for how stressful this job was. This was now your sixth time recording the 4 second part of the next album. The plan was to have a few albums line up with the majority of the members still and you had minimal lines and then one full album just you, Felix, and Chris. You couldn’t seem to hit the high note despite the fact you know you could, you have before. Chris told you to take 5 and then come back. You decided to go down the hall to the vending machine. You froze. There he was, standing in front of the vending machine. You thought of turning around and running the other way before he noticed but it was too late. He looked up at you.

“ hey… sorry I was just grabbing something, I’ll move now” he looked away nervously.

“ no wait!” He stopped for a second and looked at you before looking away again, trying to avoid eye contact. 

“Sorry, I just wanted to apologize for the other day. That was really embarrassing and probably awkward for you.”

He smiled.

“I’m Y/N by the way. I’m with stray kids right now.”

“ I know.” You didn’t know what to say to that honestly. There’s no way he’s heard your music before.

“I listen to some of your songs actually. It helps me understand English better.” You could feel the butterflies in your stomach hearing that.

“My name is Seita, I’m in a group called nexz, but I have to go back now.” You already knew his name.

“Okay, see you later?” You said nervously. He smiled and nodded before heading back to wherever he came from. 

“Y/N that was longer than 5 minutes”  Chris said sternly. Seita had left you so flustered you just stood there in the hallway giggling to yourself and you lost track of time again. Before you could explain yourself Han stood up.

“Why are you blushing?” He said in a mischievous tone. You looked back up at Chris and he just shook his head. You kept thinking of him for the rest of recording and eventually everyone in the vocal line had finished their parts and you got to go home two hours early. You headed back before the others and waited for the elevator. When it opened it felt like fate was trying to bring the two of you together. He was staring down at his phone when you stepped in he looked up immediately. 

“Oh hey Y/N” he said.

“It seems we keep running into each other” you said jokingly.

“Yeah..” he was looking at his feet seemingly trying to avoid eye contact still. “Are you heading home?” His tone was still shy.

“Yeah I finished recording so Chri- I mean Chan let me leave early. Do you usually leave at this time?” The elevator hit the first floor and you half expected him to just quickly run off but he didn’t. 

“Our dorms are like right across from your apartments. Would it be okay if you maybe wanted to walk with me? Sorry if that’s weird it’s okay if not I don’t want to make you uncomfortable or-“ you cut him off.

“Yes, I’d love to!” You said way eagerly and hoped you didn’t sound desperate. He nodded and let out a nervous laugh and you guys headed out together. You made small talk. You told him where you were from and why you wanted to be a singer and all the basics. You learned that he loves animals and loves to draw. 

“This is where I need to turn to go back.” He said.

“Oh , okay. Well I talk to you later then?”

“Yeah of course.” You smiled and turned to walk away but he grabbed your arm suddenly. You froze and felt your body start to tingle. You only hoped that you weren’t blushing.

“Sorry I was just wondering if I could get your number? You seem like a cool person to hangout with , would it be okay if we talked more? I’m sorry if that’s weird.” Once again he was looking away from you.

“You don’t have to keep apologizing, let me know when you get home?” He nodded and looked away quickly. Was he blushing? There’s no way you had to have been hallucinating. Maybe that’s why he refuses to make eye contact with you.

Over the next two weeks you two have been in contact non-stop. You’ve only seen each other twice but you talk daily. At first Chris and Jeongin caught on and teased you every chance they got but since you moved in with Hyunjin things got less chaotic. He had a girlfriend of his own and almost was never there and even when he was he never questioned you about it. Unfortunately as great as the past few weeks have been, it was the goal to get as many performances out as possible so here you were at your first mini concert of three this week, plus some type of game show but you had to perform. You weren’t too sure or what it was but you knew it wasn’t going to be fun. The concert was held in a theater and given the fanbase size it was a lottery system. The lights were bright and it was extremely hot inside. Halfway through the performance you notice a banner in the back. It was written just for you and your heart melted at the kind gesture. You waved towards then and hoped the saw. Once the concert was over you immediately texted Seita about it.

You finished the game show which was a total nightmare. The hosts kept making passive aggressive remarks towards you to the point Chris got mad and flipped out on camera. You automatically went to tell Seita about it and then realized he hadn’t responded to you all week. You asked if he was doing okay. You felt as though something was wrong so you decided to head down to where they would be practicing. You saw him sitting on a bench outside one of the recording booths he was just staring at the ground . You felt your heart twist at the sight so you immediately sat down. He looked up shocked as if he hadn’t even heard you walking towards him. He immediately got up to run off but you grabbed his arm, he looked at you and it looked like he had been crying.

“Hey, what’s wrong? You have been responding to any of my messages and you look horrible- no offense. Do you want to talk about it? I might not understand but I’ll listen if you need someone to talk to.” He stood there contemplating for a second. He nodded and sat back down. “Are you okay?” Obviously you knew the answer but you wanted him to explain what was wrong.

“It’s just… these past few comebacks I’ve been working so hard and I barely get any lines. I only have about 8 lines for this whole album. I worked so hard to get here, I’ve given up so much of my life and I practice so much and don’t let me feel seen they don’t even-“ he cut himself off trying to hold in his emotions, trying not to be seen crying. He buried his face in his hands. Instinctively you reached out and wrapped your hands around his arm. He tensed immediately. In all honesty even after all the clips you’ve seen of him you really only payed attention to his face. His arms were huge and firm with muscle. You started rubbing circles into his bicep.  

“I know it doesn’t mean much and you probably hear it all the time but I love your voice. The way you sound is unique in a good way. I could listen to it for hours. And your dancing is amazing. Just watching you dance even I feel like I can’t stop watching… that’s how talented you are. And if the company doesn’t see that in you then they can fuck off. I know my words also don’t change anything but I can try my best to help.” At first he didn’t say anything and you wondered if you went too far. You decided to rest your head on his shoulder while still caressing his arm. He froze again but then rested his head on yours. You swear your heart has never beat faster in your life. 

“Thank you Y/N. It’s means a lot because I trust you. But it’s still a horrible feeling and it still hurts me anyways.”

“I know. But I’ll always be here to listen and help as much as I can.” The two of you stay in silence for a few minutes.

“Do you want to grab coffee or something tomorrow morning?”

“I’d love too, today was our last schedule for this week so just text me and I’ll head over when you need me too.”

“Yeah, I’ll let you know but please try to pay attention this time.” You smiled and hid your face in his shoulder.

The next morning you met him at the same coffee shop that you first saw him at. You both got your regulars and sat down for a minute.

“I’m not really good at voicing my feelings but after you talked to me yesterday I decided to talk to Moya and he said he’d talk to our staff about it.”

“I’m sorry who is Moya?” You’d never heard that name before.

“Oh , Tomoya is my leader but we call him Moya.” Just then you realized you had only payed attention to him and not his members.

“I’m so sorry, I actually I realized I don’t know the rest of your group.” You admitted.

“I thought you said you watched our performances?”

“I have I guess I just never really looked into the other members.” Just then you realized what you admitted.

“So you’re saying you watched my groups performances specifically to analyze me??” He said teasingly.

“No- I mean I only knew you that’s why.” You hid your face in embarrassment. 

“I’m just messing with you Y/N! But if you want to I can introduce you to them.” You weren’t opposed so you nodded in agreement. He took you to their practice room after you finished your coffee.

Later that night you lay in your bed as you replayed all your memories with him. Although you hadn’t seen it much, his smile was to die for. The way he’d hide his face from you when he was embarrassed was so adorable. Just then you got a phone call from Chris. You just found out you’d be going back to the states for two weeks for some festival you’ve never heard before. You were sad that you couldn’t see him until then but it would be nice to go home for a bit. 

You took a private jet because you knew you couldn’t handle being mobbed. You got to the hotel first thankfully you could pick your own bed because there was an uneven amount and that was the rule. You had gotten to know all the members better and you trusted all of them with your life now but the rule was if there was an uneven amount of people  you got to sleep by yourself, but if not (at first it was Chris since you trusted him the most) it was the person you were closed in age to. You had to share a resort with your other male junior group kickflip and it was so awkward that you decided to sleep on the floor that night. You had texted Seita every single day you were gone. Mostly just catching up and random conversations. You two had become really close friends but your heart longed for more of him. The second to last day he sent  you a Goodmorning and goodnight message which was new but your heart fluttered both times. You called each other on the last night and god did you miss his sweet voice. 

When you got back it was announced that stray kids. Nmixx, and nexz would go on a “vacation” for a video of course. It sounded nice but there would be cameras everywhere and that sounded exhausting. But at least you could see him the whole time. The location was Jeju Island, Seita had talked about it a few times before and even said he wished he could take you there. You asked what he meant by that and he didn’t answer. When everyone arrived the seniors got to pick the rooms first. Somehow , someway Jeongin managed to arrange it so that you shared a room with Seita. What a sneaky little shit you thought and you had no idea if this was a blessing or not.

The first day everyone had to go on a hike together for team bonding. You stayed with Haewon and Lily most of the time but eventually they caught up with their group. Jeongin noticed and decided to fall back and walk beside you for a little while.

“You know, now’s the perfect time to talk to him. Tell him how you really feel. And don’t even try to lie it’s the most obvious thing ever. Hyunjin even told me he catches you smiling at your phone the whole night.” 

“HYUNJIN WHAT!?” Ok so maybe Hyunjin HAD been paying attention to you this whole time. And you swore you’d kill him for telling Jeongin of all people. But before you could say anything else he ran up front and you could see him whisper something in Seita’s ear. He looked back at you giggled and ran back up to the front of the group like the little shit that he is. Seita turned around and walked to you.

“I.N. hyung said you wanted to talk to me?” He asked. You wanted to kill him more than Hyunjin now.

“I mean I didn’t say anything.” He looked down.

“Oh, never mind then.” He looked forward and began to speed up.

“Wait. Would it be okay if we just stayed in the back together?” You asked trying not to sound desperate. He smiled slightly.

“Of course, this is kind of embarrassing but I really like talking to you. You’re so kind and funny and easy to be around .” You couldn’t help but blush at his words.

“Thank you- actually I really like being around you too. I like hearing your voice.” You immediately regretted that.

“So you’ve said, quite a few times actually.” He said teasingly and playfully nudged you with his shoulder, you decided to shove him back.

“Hey!” He said holding his chest like you had physically hurt him.

That night you had showered and gotten ready for bed. You were nervous, actually nervous was a huge understatement to be sleeping next to your crush. You opened the door and he was lying closest to the window. He was pressed up against the wall as to give you as much space as possible. You  got settled in and just lied  there for what felt like forever.

“You know , you don’t have to be glued to the wall. I won’t bite I promise.” You said 

“I just don’t want to make you uncomfortable.”

“ I don’t think you ever could honestly.” He closed his book and set it on the windowsill. He turned off the light, but you felt him grabbing your hand, and then he kissed it. Your heart stopped completely and you’re grateful the lights are off or you’d probably be beet red right now.

“Goodnight princess.” Is all he said before dropping your hand and facing the other way.

“Goodnight.” You managed to say. He could probably hear your heart pounding in your chest.

In the morning you were forced to all go to breakfast at 7 and the rest of the day went by in the blink of an eye. You guys just continued to do group bonding activities. Everyone went out to dinner with their own group and yours picked an Italian restaurant. Possibly the best food of your life. Jeongin kicked you from under the table and raised his eyebrows. You swear he was the most annoying person in the world. 

Once again you had showered last and climbed into bed after Seita. This time he had his book open but you could tell he wasn’t really interested in it. The second you got settled in he put his book up so you reached over to turn the lamp off but he grabbed your arm.

“Wait.” You looked at him confused.

“I want to talk to you first. I- um… how was dinner?” He asked nervously. You guys continued to talk about your days and how nice it was to finally get some time off. Even if you had to act certain things for content. Eventually you noticed he wasn’t really paying attention to your words anymore. He looked like he was zoned out into your gaze.

“Seita?” He hummed. “Is everything alright?”

“Yeah. I’m just enjoying the view.” You felt your face get hotter at his words. “Is it okay if I touch you?” You were confused by what he meant but you didn’t really mid so you just nod instead. He reaches forward and brushes the hair out of your face and then tucks it behind your ear and just stared for a second.

“Pretty” he whispered almost like he’s talking to himself. Before you can say anything he cups your jaw and started caressing your face. The butterflies come back, you’d never gotten to be this close to him. You saw everything, every blemish, every detail of his face. He looked so perfect. He moved his face closer to yours and you could feel his breath against your lips. He smelled so good , like sweet vanilla but also musky. He hovered slightly above your as to give you a chance to pull away of you wanted but why would you ? After waiting a few seconds he connects your lips. They’re softer than you ever imagined, and you’ve imagined this quite a lot. He pulls back and looks at you for permission to keep going, you smile at him and he connects your lips again. Just soft sweet kisses. You guys stay like this for probably ten minutes just kissing slowly before he starts peppering kisses all over your face and then jawline. It tickles a little bit so let out a soft giggle. You hear him huff out a small laugh in response. He starts to kiss down your neck and until now you didn’t even realize how sensitive your neck was. He comes back up and presses one last kiss on your lips and then your forehead. He looks at you and smiles. “Goodnight princess” he says again. But you weren’t finished, you wanted more. The way his soft lips felt against your skin was addicting and you needed more. You grab his arm and yank him back towards you and press your mouth against his again. It was a little more aggressive than you intended but that only added more heat to the situation. He brought his hand and cupped your face again. This time his kisses were a lot sloppier and wet. He stated to suck on your bottom lip and you couldn’t help but let out a small whine. You felt him smile against your skin at that. He flicks your lip with his tongue asking for entry and you obey. You open your mouth and feel his tongue slide in. It’s warm and he tastes so sweet. As the kiss deepens you grab onto his arms to ground yourself. You feel yourself start to get wet just from making out with him. You guys areal ready close but he somehow manages to get even closer, his body flush to yours leaving no space at all you move your hands up his back, feeling every inch of his spine. He reaches under your shirt slightly to grip your waist. Your head feels dizzy as your mind completely clouds with lust. He pulls his face back leaving a string of spit in between you guys. Not even a second later he’s leaning open mouthed kisses down your neck and Jesus fuck does it feel amazing. You feel his teeth graze your skin and you let out a whimper. He lightly sucks at your neck tying his best to not leave any marks. He runs a hand all the way over your night shirt to cup the bottom of your breast.

“Is this okay?” He asks just to make sure. You nod. He then grabs your breast fully and pinches your nipple making you arch your back. He starts kissing you again all teeth and tongue with spit getting all over the pillowcase. He then gets fully on top of you and slots himself in between your legs and gives an experimental thrust. You can’t help but let out a soft moan. He stops and looks at you to make sure you’re still okay. 

“Please” you whisper out not even caring how desperate you sound anymore. He begins grinding his hardened length against you. You move your hips in sync with his thrusts and he groans into your mouth. You feel close already despite not even being touched properly yet. Almost as if he read your mind he stops grinding into you. He slides his hand in between you and circles your clothed clit. You bite your lip to silence the moan threatening to leave your mouth. 

“Don’t do that, let me hear you baby. I want to hear all your pretty sounds.” You whimpered at the pet name. He grabs your waistband and pulls your shorts and panties down and starts circling your clit again. His fingers are long and slender and he runs them through your folds spreading your wetness. He sits back on his knees to push his sweats and boxers down. His cock bounces against his clothed stomach. It’s long and decently thick. He pumps himself a few times , spreads the pre-cum already dripping around his length. He leans forward and kisses you softly and you feel the head of his dick running through your folds. He rubs it against your clit before finally sliding it in. The stretch feels intoxicating. You let out a moan as he slowly inches forward. He kisses you again as he bottoms out. The first few thrusts are slow. Pulling out almost all the way just to bottom out again. He starts to pick up the pace and you grab his biceps digging your nails into them.

“Fuck princess, you’re so fucking tight. You feel like heaven.”

You feel yourself get closer with his praise. He throws the blanket completely to the slide and lifts your legs onto his shoulders. You can’t help but moan at each thrust. He lets go of one of your legs to circle your clit in sync with his thrusts. You feel yourself get closer until you can’t take it anymore. You scream his name as you come around him. He swears under his breath and his hips stutter as he comes inside of you. He thrusts a couple more times before finally pulling out watching his semen spill out of you. The feeling of his eyes watching you makes you anxious so you squeeze your legs together and cover your face with your hands. 

“Hey princess, it’s okay I’ve got you.” He says reassuringly as he moves your hands aside he smiles at you and kisses you.

“ I’m gonna clean you up first and then we can go to bed okay?” You nod. He smiles and gets up. He moves to the other side of the room to grab a rag and he wipes the sticky mess from in between your legs while leaving little kisses on your face. He gets up again and grabs a new pair of shorts for you. You put them on and he gets back into bed before pulling the blanket and sheets over the two of you. He turns off the light and  pulls you in closely he caresses your head for a couple of minutes before kissing your forehead.

“Goodnight Y/N, my sweet princess.” He kisses you again.