#tomatoposts

hybrid – because you can put photos in text and tagging them as one or the other makes it really confusing

relevant – when things are relevant

Base Tags

text - more duh

photo - duh

quote - ....

link - doubt I'd ever post one but you never know

chat - hahahaha I wish

audio - duh again

video - even though tumblr's video player sucks for slow internet users like me. If i reblog a video, it must be good (or from youtube)

Categorical Tags

funny - makes me lol (or exhale louder than normal)

cute - makes me awwwwwwwww

awesome - general awesomeness

wtf - like awesome, but probably in a bad way

relate - as stupid as the tags sounds, self-explanatory: things that I relate to 

positivity - because we all need some in our lives

ref - for future reference

whut - you know those times when all you can say is....whut?

truth - the truth

Descriptor Tags

youtube - because youtube is something that everyone needs to get into

music - .......

tv - tv shows

movies - movies

art - art is beautiful

words - can be as powerful as any other form of medium

nature - because the world is beautiful too

writing - for an interested writer

[insert name of thing here] - which would include but not limited to:

pokemon

hp - harry potter

thg - the hunger games

avatar/lok - avatar and the legend of korra

tfios

supernatural

oitnb - orange is the new black

doctor who

comments - because sometimes the comments make the post [insert random tag comments]

Friends.

Friends are the best.

Friends are the people you can talk to at any time. Friends listen to your concerns and you listen to theirs because you want to. Nothing feels awkward. Nothing feels strange. Everything's just natural with them. You can laugh with your friends, or even be laughed at by your friends and it doesn't mess you up. You know that they will be there for you no matter what. And you know that they'll be by your side through good times and bad. You can be the person you are when you are alone with them. You don't have to wear the mask you put on in front of others to seem natural to those who don't understand, because they understand. They know who you really are. 

I'm thankful for all of my friends, especially my best friends.

One of them brought this up with me today: We're finishing school in just a few months – the last few months of our senior year, of our final year in school. I don't know about you, but I didn't hate school that much. I'm thankful for it because of all the people I've met throughout the years. I obviously have some regrets with the entire experience. Like, what if there was a person that I would have really liked but because I never talked to them, I would never know? What if I missed on the best of friendships because I didn't branch out? But with that I'm also wondering what will happen to the friendships that already exist.

After high school is college. People move away. Become distant. I could count all my best friends in one hand and I'm fine with that. But what if, over time, those best friends, whom I trust my secrets with, slip away? Even worse to think about, but what would happen to these friendships when I meet new people, who I'm probably going to form even stronger relationships with? Will it be the same? These are the things that I can only hope.

Tonight I was chatting with my friends online, something that even on a regular basis I don't normally do (I avoid most forms of communication, but I'm trying to put myself out there so I started with that). While we were talking, I thought of all the times I missed out on similar opportunities because I wouldn't be available. I thought of the different times I was a bad friend, and how they wouldn't deserve all the crap I give them sometimes.

I'm nervous and afraid for everything that's going to come my way. But I can keep my head on hoping and believing that even after decades have passed, with the friends I've chosen and who have chosen me, I can pick up our friendship from wherever it leaves off and just continue on from there (with new experiences to share as well).

In these last  months, while we're still together, I'll make the most out of our friendships. I'll make sure to seize every opportunity to get to know them a little better, strengthening the relationships I already have.

Today I went to the mall to buy books.

I was supposed to be buying books for my friends. Sort of a late Christmas present type of thing. I asked them what book they wanted and I was going to buy it for them. Better than getting them something they wouldn't even look at, but whatever.

I wasn't able to find what they wanted, but I did I end up buying a book for myself so the trip wasn't all for nothing.

The worst part of going to the mall though was that I saw people I knew.

3 different times. Really, the luck I have sometimes...

It's not that I don't like people. I try to be as friendly as possible to everyone I meet. It's just that I'm not...what do you call it...sociable. I'm awkward and a mess whenever I see people. I can talk to my friends easily, yeah, but when I meet acquaintances (speaking in terms of Sims here) hehehe....yeah....no.

The first time, I saw the person right as I was about to go down the escalator – as in one foot in the air going to step down on the escalator. The moment I realized what was happening I wanted to turn away, go back up the down escalator...but I didn't. I thought to myself if she sees you just say hi, just say hi like a normal person, a completely sane fully-functioning human being. Then I reached the floor and bolted in the opposite direction. I don't know if she saw me or whatever, or if it was even actually her... guess I'll never really know.

The second time was one of those super awkward you going down the escalator, them going up the escalator sort of deal. This was a person who was my classmate a few years back. We don't really talk at all, so there's that. I didn't even notice him it at first, but then it kicked me when we made eye contact. There was this recognition nod that people do when they don't really want to say hi. The worst part was that he was with a girl and I was with... my mom. Yeah.

I thought it couldn't get any worse after that terrible ride down that short escalator, but no later than 30 seconds after that, we entered a shop where I saw another one of my batch mates. In a clothing store. While I was with my mom. And I'm pretty sure that she knew them. So we entered the store and I saw him. The obvious reaction was to immediately hide behind one of the clothes racks, which I did. I managed to fake text, search through clothes, and look in the distance well enough for him and his brother, who was also one of my batch mates, to not notice me. But then my mom wanted to leave. And she shouted my name. And I'm 99% sure they heard her. I should have just crumpled up there at that moment.

Reading this, you may think that I'm completely antisocial, but really, I'm not. I just don't handle myself well in small interactions...or big ones at that.