#tlsb

5. When did you find out your sexuality?

October 14th, 2018 was the day that I officially said IM A LESBIAN!

but like there was kind of like a build up previous to that where i identified as bi for a few years but like in a way where I was like “yeah im into girls but LETS SHOVE IT UNDER THE RUG AND KISS AS MANY BOYS AS POSSIBLE HAHA”  kind of way.  and then the summer before Oct. 14th, I was sitting on the couch with a friend that i was trying not to crush on, and I tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. And THAT moment alone gave me more butterflies in my stomach and electricity in my fingertips than the last three years of dating boys and THAT’S the moment i knew i was a lesbian. but i had to work through some internalized comphet before i could actually get there lol

okay so i accidentally looked at another pride ask i had in my tags for this one so you get two #6 answers lmao

6. What do you wish you could tell your past self?

Look up the definition of comphet and don’t go to Zack’s apartment. 

6. if you’re out, how did your parents/friends react?

well with my friends it was a very casual “yeah okay cool!” cause like im a theatre person so like everyone is queer lmao. it was not a big deal to any of my friends and they all saw it coming because most of them are queer lmao.

so i facetimed my parents, and my dad hadn’t gotten home yet so i told my mom and it led to a…..discussion where she asked lots of questions about what being a lesbian meant to me and had i given up on men and what about the guys i’d dated in the past and how did i know for sure blah blah blah and she eventually came around to “oh of course i love and support you (i mean hello your aunts are literally lesbians and we were in their bridal party at their lesbian wedding) i just want to ask questions because i want to be let into your life and your head and way of thinking about it so that i understand you better.”

when i told me dad he said  “Yeah, I know.” lol.

26. Tell me a random fact about yourself!

So I finally admitted to myself that I was a lesbian on October 14, right? The next day, October 15, I went to the library and checked out two books on sappho and one book on lesbianism and read all three of them in 24 hours lmao. so sappho was not only the OG lesbian but the first lesbian content i truly consumed. gotta start at the beginning babey!