#tigerku

Tiger has started to blog...  My, my... I miss you baby!

Despite whatever is happening in my life, there is always a consolation.

Tiger had been dreading when its time to go for his madrasah classes every Saturday. He was emotional and cried last week.  As for today, he refused to get ready when he is suppose to.  It really got onto my nerve!

Anyways, i managed to change his class to the one that is more suitable for his level. Previously they did not have any vacancy. 

Before the session, he looked very troubled, complained of tummy ache.  However, he was a totally different person when i fetched him. Full of life and energy!  He feedbacked that he enjoyed this new class and the ustazah is nice.

'"The other ustazah is always angry.  Dia selalu marah-marah. Pet-pot. Pet-pot.  Saya bingit sekali!"

Uulps!! My son said that!!!  Asked him where he learnt the word "bingit" from...

"I think I hear it from you..."  (Oops!!)

Anyways, now I know the reason why he was always reluctant to go to the madrasah every week.  The ustazah was not handling the kids well. 

Another Sunday morning. Another access day.

Tiger woke up smiling. I was caught off guard when he gave me a really BIG HUG today!

Aww baby!!! 

I was so touched.

You made me really emotional!!! 

My "little Mr Planner" has secretly invited his teacher for dinner this Friday. 

He told his teacher,

"Nenek will not be home and ibu is a good cook.  Ibu will cook for you and we 3 have dinner together."

Hmm....

Tiger is down with a temperature.  He is at home today recuperating.

I just got off the phone with my mom. According to her, during school hours yesterday, Tiger had informed his form teacher that his head hurts but only to receive a cold response from her. He also told my mom that his head hurts badly and was too weak to walk home from school yesterday.I am extremely disappointed with that teacher's attitude lately. She may be leaving the organisation (if my sources are true) but she still has to carry out her duties well as a teacher. She will not survive elsewhere if her attitude remains.

Other things had happened in school before.

Early this year, a girl had made him to trip and fall.  He had a big hole on his PE pants.  Did the teacher write anything in the Communication book? NO!!

When he was in Playgroup, he fell onto the corner of the bench and suffered deep cuts at the edge of his right eyebrow.  Accident was about 4pm.  No one from school called me.  I reached home at 7 plus pm only to discover the 5cm wound!!!  Rushed to the GP but they can't do anything cos the wound had dried and we had to be referred to the hospital for stitches.  Tick Tock Tick Tock.  It was only midnite when he was finally treated.  He was advised not have anything before the treatment.  Imagine us not having dinner at all that night!!!

I don't give a hoot if she reads this entry.  I am damned pissed. 

I am on leave today. Need to run some errands. Dropped him off to school earlier.  We were greeted by the principal and was informed on the cancellation of swimming lessons as the pool is closed. They were only informed on Saturday (where most of the kids are not sent to the centre).  

What can I say??  Disappointed. Definitely.  The swimming pool should be fully aware of bookings way ahead and work with the school.  Most of the kids are clad in their swimming costumes when they report to school on Mondays.  Imagine most of them had to wear that outfit in the classroom for half of today!!  As it is I have heard feedbacks about the way the coaches deal with this kids.... Sigh! Sigh! Sigh!

This afternoon, I will be personally sending him to his Maths Solution class in Bishan. Had not had the opportunity to do so for the past few sessions (due to work).  I need to see for myself how are things apart from receiving feedbacks from my mum.

With all that has been happening lately, I wouldn't really say that I am fuming mad, upset or depressed.  Physically and mentally tired - of course.  I just can't describe my feelings right now. Cos on top of all that, my boss has been giving me a really hard time.  A bitch she is. (She was born in the year of the Dog wokay. Its deem appropriate to call her that.)

Now about my boss.  She was negotiating that I take half day today.  I gave her a NO.  Simply because she had told us not to be on leave from 6-20 March BUT she is on leave on 11 Mar. Its during the school hols.  On 12 Mar, I need to attend a talk that starts at 6pm in Woodlands and had actually informed her way in advance and will be taking my time off.  She came back to me with 1001 conditions!  MY!  Its my time off for goodness sake and I had given ample notice!  She had still not learnt her lesson after that incident last year.  Where a fellow ex colleague gave her a piece of her mind before her last day.  And very soon another colleague will be resigning ALL because of her.  Ridiculous woman!

and when will be my turn???

I am the type of person who hates to dwell up the past and hates it BIG time when people does it to me.  Its the past.  What can you do??  To some people, its to make you realise your mistakes.  To some, its meant to hurt you or make you feel, worst - look bad.  I'd rather we move on and not look back.  Of course, mistakes should not be repeated and we should learn from it.

Tiger came home asking. "Ibu, was the trip to Paris paid by nenek Tampines?" I was flabbergasted by his question.  His stepmum fed him with the information.

(It was a vacation to make up for my cancelled honeymoon because everyone in his family wanted to follow.  The purpose of the trip however was to visit his sister who was due to give birth there. Therefore it could not be considered a honeymoon as there were no privacy because the family was there too. I was 5 months pregnant with Tiger. Sigh!  Indeed, my ex MIL sponsored the trip because we had to accompany them thru the 13 hour flight.)

I replied Tiger that I can't remember because it was a long time ago.  It was 6 years ago to be precise and this woman was not even in the picture yet.  What is the purpose of her telling my son all these???  My son was not even born??  To tell my son that I am ungrateful???  Well, if it came from my ex MIL then its understandable.  His new wife???  Moreover, my son was down with fever yesterday!!!

So as not to tense the both of us up, I simply told my son.  "In future, if mummy tells you anything about last time, just tell her - MUMMY, ITS A LONG TIME AGO. I DON'T WANT TO KNOW."  I should only instill positive values in my child so that he'll be able to decide what is best and not be easily influenced by them.  Have to also remind myself not be like them.

These past few weeks had been very hectic for me.  From accompanying my mum to Jurong to attend a funeral.  Then to Tampines the following week to get some stuffs.  Last week, to the TTSH to visit her cousin and I went out with my cousins to the IT fair at Suntec after that.

And.... the recent Saturday was spent with my darling as he has no madrasah... We were on the way to Marina when my mum called to inform that my grandpa is admitted into the hospital (again).  We dropped by TTSH to visit him after our outing before heading home.

Yesterday, I finally got some rest before visiting grandpa again in the evening.  I really needed that rest.  I was held up by my irritating, sickening, selfish boss!!!!  It was 5 minutes to knock off time. Have made plans with my uncle to give me a lift on his way home.  She called from her meeting and instructed me to stay!!  I was like, "What the hell!! I have got plans woman!!!"  Gave her 1001 excuses and she refused to let me off.  She insisted that I stay until she return as I am needed to call up some participants for the cancellation of class.  She said, if I can't do it on Friday, I have to do it on weekends from home! Damn!!!! I asked her, "What if they were to call again after that?"  With no feelings or common sense she replied, "Whats wrong with that??" "Its my personal line & time. And its my family we are talking about here."  Fine. I relented.

Did what I was suppose to do.  Which, as expected, I was screamed and cursed over the phone by one of the participants.  She was terribly upset and made numerous demands.  (And what if I were to call them using my personal, non company sponsored line?)  My boss ain't got the brains at all!  Next time, I'll ask to use her mobile line instead. (I will do it if she's too much!  I mean it.)  Ding dong. 1 hour passed by.  Before I left I dropped her a hint that I'll leave early on Monday.  And her reply, "That means I'll have to knock off earlier than you since I am still here.."  So very cunning...

Anyways, I am at home today.  Gastric attacks!  Hoped to get a good rest but couldn't really with all the disruptions along the way. 

The sweetest thing to happen this morning was when Tiger came into my room and asked how I felt.  Told him, I am not feeling well and that I will be seeing the doctor later.  He hugged me and said, "I don't want to go to school. I want to stay at home and looked after you..."  Awww... my heart melted.  Such a caring kid.  He cried when i told him that its ok and that he has to go to school as there are many activities today.

Dropped him off to school on my way to the doctor.  It touched me when he grabbed and hugged and kissed me without asking.  (Often, he had to be told to do so...)

Tomorrow is another day that I have to face.  Well, i have to brave myself and face it!