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Santa Baby (one little thing I really need) by we_are_the_same | T | 3082 When Louis himself had first heard those words - all the nurses at the A&E have a secret line to Santa’s sleigh on Christmas Eve-, not nearly long enough ago to be considered a child himself, but long enough that he hadn't really felt like an adult all the time, he’d laughed them off. Thought they were sweet, of course, but just a line, something said to appease the kids who ended up having to stay overnight. Something to explain the presents that parents brought to the hospital on Christmas morning, or that were waiting for them at home, if they were lucky not to have to stay any longer. Something that would allow a little bit of Christmas spirit in the sometimes sterile rooms of the hospital. But that was before he’d met him.

A Kiss for Christmas by LadyAJ_13 | T | 3272 Louis meets Father Christmas, then twenty one years later, he meets his son.

Step Into Christmas by babyhoneyhslt | G | 4003 Louis just wants to celebrate his birthday in peace, without all the Christmas antics. Instead he wakes up in a strange bed, a confused stranger next to him and a self proclaimed elf calling him Santa.

until springtime, we sleep (i'll wait for you) by istgeve | nr | 5081 “You’re on the naughty list.” “I— what?” “You’re on the na—“ “Yeah, I got that part. But what does it have anything to do w—“ “You’re on the naughty list.” “Harry.” “Yeah?” “What the fuck?” Or a Christmas AU where Louis is on the naughty list and is kidnapped by a very adorable Elf to serve his punishment.

Ho Ho Hopefully by muldxr | T | 5144 Attached to the gift, just under the bow, was a paper tag, and Harry wished desperately that he could write his own name there. ‘To Louis, from Harry.’ What a dream that would be He’d grown fond of Louis over the time that he’d been watching him, wishing that he could be part of Louis’ life, of his world, regardless of the fact that the only thing Harry had ever known was working for Father Christmas—or Nicholas, as he’d preferred to be called.

Santa Claus Is Coming... To volunteer by nekenma28 | T | 5405 Harry's little niece Charlie is going to spend Christmas for the first time without her mother by her side, so he decides to tell her a nice Christmas bedtime story. He just didn't understand how a made-up story could come true and Harry could become a volunteer Santa Claus responsible for delivering billions of gifts in one night having to put up with the provocative Louis elf. But it's like the saying goes... Have Christmas spirit to give ho-ho-ho last!

Under the Pink Willow Tree by brightlyharry | nr | 7631 It's Christmas Eve and also Louis' eighteen birthday. It's the biggest day of Louis' life. He's been keeping up with his elfin studies for years all in preparation for this. He finally gets to join Santa on the sleigh. Nothing Harry says can ruin this day for him, no matter how hard he tries.

Satan/Santa [Series] by taggiecb | E | 15853 Louis keeps stealing some of Harry’s mail, which would be annoying for anyone, but it’s especially troubling when you consider that Harry is Santa Claus. Harry will have to go through hell to get Louis to stop. Literally. Or the one with Santa Harry and Satan Louis and a series of misspelled letters to Santa.

bonus points if u have something with internalized homophobia and sexuality crisis u.u but honestly anything similar would do it. hope u know anything :) have a nice day and thanks in advance!

Hi, anon! I'm doing great/crashing out over all the new Louis content haha but yes, I'm having a great day! Thanks for asking! Here are some recs for you!

Completely, and Absolutely by iwillpaintasongforlou

Louis is so completely and absolutely NOT gay that the fact that anyone thinks Harry is his soulmate is just being ridiculous. Including himself. He just thinks they're mates that are two parts of the same soul, and that's not weird at all. Okay?

Or, the one in which Louis spends the entirety of X Factor so deep in denial that he doesn't realize he's gay until he's already 3000% gone for the dimpled mess in his arms.

Promise in the Sky by Throwthemflowers / @hazzabeeforlou

AU in which Harry Styles, a naïve, repressed, socially awkward Midwestern highschooler tries to navigate his fundamentalist evangelical parents and radically progressive older sister. He’s doing an okay job of this until the Tomlinson family starts attending Lakeside Baptist Church and a boy named Louis changes everything. Harry is forced to come to grips with his true self when Louis becomes more than just his best friend; but their relationship opens a can of worms and sends them on the most painful, heartbreaking journey of their young lives. They risk everything and nearly lose, and Harry learns that perhaps only one Bible verse is true: that perfect love casteth out fear.

Saw It In Your Eyes by @taggiecb

Harry Styles counts himself extremely lucky that he has landed such a great roommate. It doesn’t bother him at all that his new roommate is gay. In fact, they get along so well that they have formed an extremely close friendship that takes up pretty much all his free time. When Louis starts bringing a new guy home with him, Harry is surprised by how much it bothers him. Is he not as okay as he thought he was with Louis’ sexuality?

The Garden Part 2 by throwthemflowers // @hazzabeeforlou​

It's 1969 and Louis Tomlinson has returned from Vietnam wounded not only physically, but in sprit. When his only chance at healing comes from a source he cannot bear to remember, he's forced to test the strength of his love by not only forgiving himself, but stealing from God.

44k // Explicit // fic post

First and foremost, this fic deals with serious, heavy themes. Heed the tags and practice self care. But! Although at times this story was eerily timely, I have to say that I found it cathartic as opposed to triggering, which I suspect is due in part to the obvious love and care that the author put into it. You can tell how much research went into building this rich world (the details!) but the story never gets bogged down in it, which is a feat. The prose is gorgeous, I wanted to savor every word – I just stopped and stared at some of the most powerful lines – but the pace and the build of the story were so good, I couldn’t stop reading. I have to quote the first paragraph so you can see what I mean:

Sunset stretches out along the curved horizon line. The warm, pastel gold is wicked up by clouds like white bread soaked in honey. For the first time in two years Louis notices the beauty of the fading daylight. For the first time in two years he isn’t convinced that this sunset will be his last.

It’s a mature, nuanced read with pitch perfect characterizations that will get under your skin. At times it’s raw and visceral and almost uncomfortable, but I found that I wanted to linger in this world longer, to reflect and understand more. I think you can take from it what you want, if you’re in the mood for angst and to have your heart broken or if you really want to dig deeper and explore the themes, like the disillusionment that the characters experience. 

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Flawless 

Words: 25k

After a debilitating surgery, former concert pianist Harry Styles isn't able to come to terms with his new reality. Sundered from his high standards of performance, Harry can't seem to feel anything anymore, except perhaps interest in his favorite coffee shop's barista, a man who seems wholly unsuited for the job and whose blue eyes hold in them the same pain that Harry struggles with every day. When fate renders them more than mere acquaintances, Harry is forced to deal with the insecurities of his condition and his stubborn pride. Louis wants to love him, but Harry can't accept that, because he can't accept himself. And besides, he's never loved. He doesn't know how. He just wants to be able to play his piano like before, because it was safe, because at its keys he could control the roiling of his heart and funnel it into music. With love, things are much too risky. Why would he ever take such a chance?

Promise in the Sky 

Words: 99k

AU in which Harry Styles, a naïve, repressed, socially awkward Midwestern highschooler tries to navigate his fundamentalist evangelical parents and radically progressive older sister. He’s doing an okay job of this until the Tomlinson family starts attending Lakeside Baptist Church and a boy named Louis changes everything. Harry is forced to come to grips with his true self when Louis becomes more than just his best friend; but their relationship opens a can of worms and sends them on the most painful, heartbreaking journey of their young lives. They risk everything and nearly lose, and Harry learns that perhaps only one Bible verse is true: that perfect love casteth out fear.

Until You Remember 

Words: 21k

Harry lowered his head a moment, then whispered, “It hurts, Lou. If you kissed me, it wouldn’t hurt so much.”

Louis set his mug down with a clink on the coffee table. “What wouldn’t hurt so much?”

Harry closed his eyes. “I don’t know.”

“Fooking bloody hell…” Louis cursed under his breath as he brought his hands to his face and rubbed roughly over his cheekbones. “Harry, do you know what… what…”

“What is wrong with me?” Harry finished in a soft, small voice.

Louis’s heart dissolved into a mass of pulsing shame. He pulled the man to him and gently pressed his lips to Harry’s forehead.

“There’s nothing wrong with you, Harry. You’re kind and sweet and good, and I don’t understand you at all, and I don’t know if I ever will, but there’s nothing wrong with you, darling. Nothing at all.” Louis breathed in his scent, swallowing hard.

--Talented London pianist Louis Tomlinson moves to a small coastal town to escape the elites of his job and the mundanity of his life. Through the music of Debussy he finds a charming, wonderful friend in Harry Styles, the fiancé of the town's mayor. Louis thinks his pining is in vain until he discovers that all may not be as it seems....

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hiiiiiii idk about big in the fic world. that made me laugh. thanks though! i definitely appreciate it. i’ll link your fic :) and i’ll tag @nottooldforthisship and @softhie too

Until You Remember by Throwthemflowers

Hi, anon! Here are some fics that fit what you're looking for...

Promise in the Sky by Throwthemflowers / @hazzabeeforlou

AU in which Harry Styles, a naïve, repressed, socially awkward Midwestern highschooler tries to navigate his fundamentalist evangelical parents and radically progressive older sister. He’s doing an okay job of this until the Tomlinson family starts attending Lakeside Baptist Church and a boy named Louis changes everything. Harry is forced to come to grips with his true self when Louis becomes more than just his best friend; but their relationship opens a can of worms and sends them on the most painful, heartbreaking journey of their young lives. They risk everything and nearly lose, and Harry learns that perhaps only one Bible verse is true: that perfect love casteth out fear.

Pour Your Heart Out by @hrrytomlinson

Louis is his soulmate. Or at least Harry thinks he is. Louis feels the same as Louis. But there are a lot of people named Louis in the world and this Louis might not be the Louis. It’s besides the point though, because Harry knows he can’t allow himself to get close to any boys. He just can’t and he’s told himself this multiple times. He has to simply stay away from Louis Tomlinson. But he can’t. Harry Styles can never stay away from Louis Tomlinson. It’s physically impossible for him to.

Have A Little Faith In Me by @fallinglikethis

Harry Styles remembers Louis Tomlinson fondly. They used to spend the summers bonding at Bible Camp, helping each other memorize bible verses for their weekly challenge against the boys in the other cabins, and chatting into the early hours of morning when they were supposed to be sleeping. They had been so close back then. Harry was heartbroken when Louis hadn’t been there last summer. He’d heard rumors, vague comments about how Louis had changed but he didn’t believe them. He couldn’t. Because the other boys, the ones from Louis’ home town, were saying that he’d started getting piercings and tattoos, that he’d come out as gay, and that he’d turned his back on God.

this anon made me want to read something like that 😅 so here i am asking if you got any rec q character development that involves sexuality themes like internalized homophobia, discovering sexuality and stuff? hope you're doing great <3

Hi, anon! I'm doing fine! Hope you're doing well, too. Here are some fics with good character development that have to do with their sexuality in some way...

don't be afraid to love (and love again) by localopa / @voulezloux

All Louis’ life, he’s known he’s been different. There’s always been something at odds about how he felt.

As the eldest daughter of seven kids, he knew something was wrong with his body. Something was off, he just couldn’t quite put his finger on it. His mum dressed him in dresses and tights, plaits in his hair as he wandered around with the local neighborhood boys. They called him a girl, called him she and Rosemary when his name is Louis. He had told the boys as such, but they would tell him Louis is a boy’s name, not a girl’s.

Louis is a boy. He knows he is.

or the one where louis is trans and afraid, harry is cis and brave, and being 100% yourself is easier said than done.

Promise in the Sky by Throwthemflowers / @hazzabeeforlou

AU in which Harry Styles, a naïve, repressed, socially awkward Midwestern highschooler tries to navigate his fundamentalist evangelical parents and radically progressive older sister. He’s doing an okay job of this until the Tomlinson family starts attending Lakeside Baptist Church and a boy named Louis changes everything. Harry is forced to come to grips with his true self when Louis becomes more than just his best friend; but their relationship opens a can of worms and sends them on the most painful, heartbreaking journey of their young lives. They risk everything and nearly lose, and Harry learns that perhaps only one Bible verse is true: that perfect love casteth out fear.

Hold You Now by solvetheminourdreams / @cursethedaylight

Hi, anon! Here are some slow burn friends to lovers fics that also have some angst/school related things in them like y&b...

This Multiplicity of Powers by @helloamhere

Maybe in another universe he isn’t different. Maybe he hadn’t been given an impossible choice. Maybe he wouldn’t have lost everything and broken everything and then fallen impossibly, irrevocably in love with the first next thing that was kind. Maybe in that universe he doesn’t feel like he’s never breathing, always pretending, teaching the kids even though they all have to learn alone, trying hard not to read the headlines, and so afraid, every day, that he won’t be a good enough teammate to the superhero he can’t live without. He knows that love isn’t supposed to feel this way, slid secret under your skin like a surgical razor, an invisible war held close over the tender vein that keeps you alive. On the other hand, Louis wonders, had he ever known how to do it any other way?

Maybe there’s a universe where he doesn’t have to keep all his secrets on the inside.

But this isn’t that universe.

//an X-Men AU.

Follow Your Arrow by Anonymous

Harry was the golden child, blessed in every way; Niall was the charming miscreant, a bad boy; Liam was the future-son-in-law parents of daughters dreamt of, and Zayn was the kid parents wished was their son. But Louis, Harry thought, Louis was the special one. 

It's senior year and everything is about to change.

Promise in the Sky by Throwthemflowers / @hazzabeeforlou