#thoughtsfromwithin

Your environment and the people you choose to surround yourself with are essential to your growth, progress, success, peace, and sanity. Experiencing this first hand was a complete trip all on its own. I had to meet the worst of me just to want to meet the best of me. It wasn’t easy and every day is still a struggle. I had help, don’t be afraid to ask for or be too prideful to receive help if any kind. But never stop learning. Never stop maturing. Never stop loving. And if you do, it’s okay. But keep going. I promise it does get better. Never stop. Never settle. How do you plan on overcome your biggest struggles? #evolving #thoughtsfromwithin #brainatmaxcapacity #avoidinghomework #byreevaluatingmywholelifelol https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp3m2UDgUO-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cemmcjr20n70

i’ll never be able to compete with someone so beautiful. she is beautiful and i am not. my soul, however, is the most beautiful part about me. what i lack in outer beauty, i make up in my humor. my kindness. my awkwardness. my joy. as much damage as the world has done to me, i won’t let it touch the deep parts of my soul. i can’t promise you that i’ll be beautiful like her, but i can promise to stay up with you and talk about what bothers you, what interests you, what keeps you up at night. i can promise to always be dorky with you, and watch cheesy movies and make fun of each other with you. i can promise to cook with you and dance around the kitchen to music with you. i can promise to cry with you at your hardest times, and smile with you at your greatest times. you see, i promise to be your best friend. i’ll always be there for you, even if you do choose beauty. that’s what the world is all about, outer beauty. but if you ever want what’s inside, i can guarantee it’ll still be there.

Oh..you're back again. That feeling. Long time, no see my old friend. *Sighs* ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I just don't know. I.. Well.. *runs fingers through hair* ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Tyhjyys

Sigh..

Oh how a soul can ache..

I have all of these emotions swirling around inside. All swirling and molding into this heavy, empty feeling inside. It feels like the sound of dead quiet. When there is no noise at all, it’s so quiet that you can hear your own heartbeat quiet. That’s the feeling inside me. The quiet, emptiness pounding and pulsing, radiating through my entire chest. It makes me tired. Always feeling this way; I just need rest. No matter how much sleep I get, I’m still tired. I just..I don’t know.