#thoughts wanted

I was going to rewatch Call The Midwife than realised there were like 4 more seasons? So I started from the season I hadn't been able to watch (season eight). And I got to Violet's council arc. And I'm really not liking her in these later seasons.

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Though admittedly, it would be nice!

So I have the idea (belief maybe?) that everyone needs a tragedy in there life, no matter how small, to be able to grow as a person. Not saying that I wish tragedy on everyone, but I think everyone will go through a tragedy at some point.

I start with this because my biggest fear is that I will be my love’s tragedy. That I will be the one to put him through the pain of loss (a pain I know well) because I’m weak. My love hasn’t gone through much, and what he had gone through was years ago and doesn’t quite fit what I mean.

After I apologised, for the eighth time, for using all your tissues

we lapsed into silence

I didn't know how to speak without a sorry in front of it

I had learned shame, somehow,

I had learned that if you took a walnut,

this was in woodwork,

if you took a walnut and rubbed it into the wood of your box,

we built boxes that year, I still have mine, I keep dildos in it, I have unlearned shame,

if you took a walnut and rubbed it deep into the wood of your box

you could hide a scratch or dent or imperfection,

please note this doesn't fix them,

this masks them, pushes, a little piece of the walnut into the empty space,

I said sorry eight times in four minutes

Do you like it? Not like it? What should change?