#thisperson

Anoying person who loves Christmas: ,,CHRISTMAS IS SO LOVELY, AND EVERYONE SHOULD BE LOVED AND GIVE LOVE!!!",

Me: ,,I know. That's why I hate it."

The person again: ,,Your heart is so cold, you just need some love!"

Me: *rolls eyes* ,,Yeah, I guess that's it!"

In my previous post. I posted about The End of New Beginning. 

gentle but strict alert : it might be temporary. but. but. but. (wow, three times) today i came across with one deep sentence - 

knowing that Allah SWT can remove anyone in your life, makes you cherish them even more at the present moment because you know they aren’t going to stay throughout your life. 

So now i am writing about my new beginning. So my new beginning is - this person. This person live up the sentence that I had came across with. I might never know what would happen next. It’s either working out or down the drain. It’s either we both take separate ways. Or remain as it is, no faster nor slower gear, just steer the wheel. Or. yes, i am human too, i tend to think and take it to the fantasy land - what if this person will be standing next to me in reaching the destination to Allah SWT’s place? What if this person will walk with me throughout everything? But then with so many reading and thoughts, I really. Really need to slow down everything. Or stop trying. Stop looking. But I believe Allah SWT plan this cute idea of meeting this person in the most unexpected ways. And I am happy with His Plan hehe.

But. This person might also seeing someone else. This person also might getting close with someone else. This person probably need someone to talk to and people said I am the best person when it comes in having conversation. This person might be a very nice person and choose to be polite. 

Then again, despite of above-mentioned probabilities, I can’t ignore the facts that the actions made by this person might overrule the probabilities. This person offers to send me back despite of long miles, talk for long hours, and always know what and not what to say. The two main things that hold us close - the mutual understanding and interesting stories that had been exchanged by us. And I am tired of goofing and chasing people but this person never let me feel like that. We know our pace. We know how to steer the wheel together but still never let go of the wheel as we are being extra careful. That’s what I adore and like about this person. It’s okay to be careful and not putting up our hopes too high. And I strongly believe this person is also doing the same thing. We are basically on the same page. 

Then again. I only can pray. I never felt like this before. Calm. Peace. Affected in a good way. It is still new. Yet, if it’s not working out, at least I can hold back to that particular deep sentence. Whereby this person will not forever exist in my life but I would always remember this person as a beautiful memory.