tuesday
I sound like a bitch in half of my post here, i write here alot and on a journal on my phone. It helps me clear my mind. Im to the point now in my life, im excited about what my future holds. right now, i wish i was in a better place with my man, he doesnt show affection, im the one that does. ive been backing off of it. to me why show it, if your not getting anything back. At the beginning of our relationship. you can say that it was good, he showed affection, but now its hardly any. i talked to him about it, he said im not affection guy, ive been with you for almost a year and half, and its like now that im hardly getting any affection. I just back off, why try if your not trying.
He doesnt show it in public at all, im lucky even if he did show a lil otheriwse he doesnt show anything. Sometimes i wonder if were even a couple, he doesnt show love, its only when he feels like it, he hates cuddling unless he is asleep and its time for bed. He will show it in his sleep. Otherwise he doesnt show it at all. I have to beg him for affection, or to cuddle. I stopped that recently. I stopped asking for sex or affection. When the time comes, he will ask for something. im gonna literally say no thank you. Ive tried for almost two years to touch you, i got nothing, you rejected me, or say not in the mood. It was hard, yes i thought alot you were cheating on me, because you didnt seem yourself. so i just stopped trying to be a girlfriend to you. all he does he give me kissed and says babe and baby all the time, on a good day, hell grab my hand. in my head im excited, then again, like how long will this last? im always wondering
