#thisisembarassing

Update: 4 DAYS BEFORE LOVER!!! 💖💖

Hey taylor the mother of cats, queen of snakes and my forever khaleesi @taylorswift ! I’ve just graduated last month!! 🎓

I KNOW YOU’LL NEVER READ THIS BUT SINCE YOU’RE FOREVER MY BEST FRIEND I JUST HAVE TO SHARE YOU THIS! Aka. @taylornation make sure she read this okay!

I moved to the UK in 2014, when I was FIFTEEN BY MYSELF! I REPEAT IT’S FIFTEEN. 15151515. Lol but anyway just few days before I moved (to be exact - 10 days) I saw you performing live in Jakarta🥺♥️ and my heart was about to explode!! I didn’t manage to get a front row cause I had a final exam on that day, I ended up being in the middle literally seeing you from this distance

ANYWAY! I want to keep it short but, I just want to thank you for being there for me when I don’t even believe myself. I have graduated with BA in PR & Advertising with First Class Honours Degree, all thanks to you! And of course eveyone else as well as my parents, friends everyone! And twin @taylorswift I chose advertising! Just what you said you would have chose as a career if you were not in the music industry and my brain went asdfhrkdfhskfkfk 😸

I still remember my first day moving here all by myself and the soundtrack to my life was:

‘you take a deep breath and you walk through the door it’s the morning of your very first day’

‘But I realised a bigger dream of mine’

‘You just might find who you’re supposed to be’

I never relate to anything more than this in my life. AND YES QUEEN, I DIDN’T KNOW I’D GO THIS FAR WHEN I WAS FIFTEEN!!!!

Long story short, I survived living by myself abroad for the past 5 years as you do, alone, and thank you staying by my side with now 5 years later LOVER is coming out! This is just one part and I’ll have more stories to come about you!!

it will be here on this tumblr:

 https://kerrylillian.tumblr.com

you are all really good and wonderful and should follow me there because i don’t know what I'm doing and who does? and life seems to be taking steps without me and this is the closest i can get to feeling like i’m getting closer to something. i need to get close to something again. i want the world to know.