#thishazeleyeddemon

so me and a friend were driving around up on the north coast of ireland and it was the middle of the night and we were just aimlessly driving, listening to music, etc. and we found this weird country lane coming off the main road that was just a single track through thick forest and we were like oh this is spooky. let's go up it. because you know, it's the middle of night.

so we drive around for a bit and we turn this really tight bend and there is a huge viaduct just right in front of us. like the road goes through one of the arches and it is massive. it's totally out of place i do not know why it was there and anyway we're like oh that's cool and we drive through it and then we keep driving and chatting and then we turn a really tight bend and there's a viaduct. and we're like oh ok maybe the road doubled back even though we damn well know it didn't so we keep driving and we're getting a little bit creeped out now and then we turn a corner again and you guessed it. there's the viaduct.

so by this point we're definitely freaked out and we're starting to say to each other what the hell is going on here and i start driving a little bit faster. we go around the bend there's the viaduct and this happens again and again. different corners, same exact viaduct. no place to turn off or around, just narrow lane and steep forested slopes either side.

oh, it’s just a personal thing— I grow my hair out very long, and I have since I was young; my mother and sister do too. Our mum’s an old school hippie and it’s always been a counterculture/freedom thing for us, a way to feel beautiful that’s very disconnected from all the salon stuff. My long hair makes me feel like me.

I had never cut it more than an inch or so for maintenance, but when I was sixteen I finally gave in to peer pressure and chopped it to my shoulders— the other theatre kids insisted I was repressed, that I’d be and feel modern and sexy with it short. I immediately regretted and hated it. I didn’t actually want to feel modern or sexy! I wanted to feel like me, like the parts of me I like!

anyway growing it back out was very healing for me, and the seeming everpresence of “cut off a character’s long hair to show she’s come into her own” just annoys me. No individual instance of it is necessarily bad, and I certainly don’t have any opinions on what real people do with their hair, it’s just that I get pouty about it being all over the place in stories and happy when the opposite occasionally happens.