#this is... awful

❛ I can get closer . ❜ - wickian ( for sofia )

          Every time I see you again, I forget just how much distaste I have for you.     With a sigh & a roll of my eyes, the palm of my hand slams against an assailant's nose.     I heard a groan, a snap, then nothing.      Straight into the brain.      There's a smirk on my face as he drops to the floor     &     I have a moment to reload my gun.     With a grunt as someone side tackles me, I fire once     ---    straight into his eye socket.     "  Then fucking do it, John!     What are you waiting on  ---  an invitation?  "

❛    also asked by @idryusan: what song sua wants to cover for christmas. 

christmas, to sua, is just another day to cross off her calendar. although, she goes a little heavy with the red sharpie when she stumbles across the holiday each year — resentment spilling onto the paper along with the damp ink. if she shed tears, she’s sure her calendars would’ve seen plenty over the years.

but she doesn’t cry. not anymore. 

christmas, and christmas songs, are brutal, gruelling reminders of christmas pageants. short red dresses to mimic a “babydoll” version of santa claus, paired oh-so-fittingly with bedazzled knee socks and santa caps. she’ll admit it, she looked cute in the costumes. and as she matured, the costumes started to fit differently. look differently. 

but no costume was enough of a distraction. not when she spent her holidays having her hair pulled back so tightly she suffered from migraines. not when she spent her holidays holding back sobs as she stood under those blinding fucking spotlights — her mother’s eyes piercing into her, even when she sat the farthest from stage.

if sua had a choice ? she’d never sing another christmas carol. but she knows resentment of such a joyful holiday isn’t something to share with her future fans. so, she’ll plaster on a sugary-sweet smile, as saccharine as the bubblegum lip gloss she’s sure to have painted on her lips — and she’ll tell you she’d like to cover “santa baby”. it’s a typical answer, once you get to know sua. a song that can be sung with a coquettish twist, and performed with a sweetly-sexy dance. 

it’s the song she’d have the most fun covering.