#this is a novel...........

7: Does your OC have any irrational phobias?

HAHA he doesn’t like bugs... of any kind but more specifically he hates spiders and he hates worms. the idea of disease is also something that still manages to skeeve him out on occasion, which is funny considering he hasn’t had to worry about getting sick for like 200 years now. he avoids people with colds SO MUCH. 

is it irrational tho considering how many times he’s been paralyzed underground while bugs tried their best to eat at him and the fact that the first time he died it was from dysentery 

8: How is/was your OC’s relationship with their parents?

his mother doted on him a lot! she was also very sickly. he was a lot closer to his mother than his father, he was kind of the mama’s boy. really wanted to make his dad proud and could never really QUITE get his approval exactly the way he wanted, he was a difficult man to please! part of why he left for america is because he wanted to proof himself to them both and also wanted to secure a safe enough home for them all the move in together as a happy family. WE ALL KNOW HOW THAT WORKED

18: What kind of intrapersonal values does your OC have? (values about their self, what makes them feel like a valid person)

:)... :’)... :”)

to nisha feeling valid means being useful! she doesn’t feel good about herself unless she’s helping others, and even then, that’s sort of weighed down because she 1) feels terrible because she feels like she’s using other people’s suffering to make herself feel better, how evil! 2) feels manipulative and fake because HER INTENTIONS ARE BAD SHE’S BAD WHO IS SHE TRYING TO FOOL 3) feels helpless because she feels like she can never help ENOUGH and the second they start falling apart again it means she failed OH and dont forget 4) feels like the second she starts helping someone, she’s actually damning them further in the long-run cuz everyone she cares about dies :)

she just really desperately depends on other people’s approval of her to feel valid in the world! otherwise she feels like the worst. she feels evil, she feels bad, and those good things from other people are what redeems her... and even then, she’s still the worst, just slightly less :( save her

LOL I ANSWERED THIS AND REALIZED YOU ASKED THIS FOR NORA NOT NISHA but i already answered 1 for nisha so i’m gonna switch them up and do that one for nora haha WHOOPS. THE CURSE OF HAVING TWO CHARACTERS WITH SIMILAR NAMES

19: What boosts your OC’s confidence the most?

sex :’( she’s hypersexual af she likes being told that she’s sexy, she likes being praised in general and she likes finding value in the compliments and comments people make about her! she has this image she loves to project, and she loves the idea of people romanticizing her and her suffering (she loves being the manic pixie dream girl for someone, it’s a very safe easy standard to live by) so when people say things that prove that she’s coming across Exactly Right she feels SO GOOD

30: What makes your OC defensive quickest? 

CONFRONTATION she hates hates hates when people use their words to try and criticize her. she hates having to use her words at all. whether to talk about her feelings, her plans, her past, her future, she accepts none of it. she wants everything to be lighthearted and superficial at all times, and she likes teasing/insulting other people but the second someone tries to do it to her, her guard is up and she immediately gets moody. 

1: What’s your OC’s biggest insecurity and how would they react if someone pointed it out to them?

answered! but here’s nora’s answer:

nora has a HUGE problem with being seen as a victim. or rather, an unwilling participant. anyone can see what happens between her and her past relationships and very easily (and of course, wrongfully) blame her for what went wrong in them, and she is totally okay with that. that way, she’s in control. it was HER fault, SHE was a victim of her OWN choosing. she can’t control her childhood abuse though and how she and her mother reacted to her father’s abuse, and she hates that. she hates how she reacts to her own trauma. she hates that her daughter seems to be an extension of her, born out of hatred and violence and abuse, and she hates the fact that she can’t help but see her own kid as that. she hates that her entire life since she was 15 has been one cycle of retraumatization after another but she also needs it too much to keep it from being her one source of an identity. to people who know her well, to nisha, this is a very obvious fact, and when they point it out, she lashes out as violently as she can to prove that she has some power and some sort of advantage in her environment. 

9: Does your OC feel a pressure to achieve or are they content and calm with doing what they can at the moment?

THE PRESSURE TO ACHIEVE IS NISHA’S WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. and the worst part is, she’s really not all that ambitious! she doesn’t really care WHAT she’s doing in her life, as long as she succeeds the most at it! she has careers that she fixates on (currently a cop, she used to want to be a nurse though, and before that something in the social work field), and they become her entire life. it’s not even that if she doesn’t achieve, she fails, because to her, that’s putting it so lightly. there is no ‘not achieving’. she has to achieve because that justifies her existence on earth. if she doesn’t achieve, it’s not that she doesn’t deserve to live, it’s that her life was a goddamn waste and a poison to everyone around her and absolutely unforgiveable.

i reiterate: save this poor child, pls

17: Does your OC suffer from any mental health issues?

BOY, DO THEY

nisha: ocd, ptsd/c-ptsdnora: c-ptsd, bipolar, hpd, had a case of post-partum depression after she had her daughter, hypersexuality and drug addictionaaron: shitchild. tbh i can’t rly see him with any disorders that i can rly pinpoint! maybe when he was human, but

27: Does your OC practise any kind of escapism? If yes, what kind?

nisha regularly dissociates! pretty frequently actually. she also has the tendency to obsess and hyperfixate on things and use that to escape her life, and she kind of masks them until kind-of grand noble ideas... example, her current obsession is obsessing over true crime events, under the guise of ‘trying to find a serial killer’ when she only barely has the resources to do so

nora i would say she escapes through her relationships. it’s a lot of projecting and a lot of getting lost in fantasies and ignoring the reality of what’s happening, i.e. her relationship with her ex-fiance and her relationship with aaron

... stares at aaron... this shit... i would say, again, projecting, fantasizing, obsessing, he makes up these ideas and kind of... acts them out through his murders, if that makes sense? his treatment of nisha and nora all play into this image in his head and he’s constantly trying to mold the world into fitting that image yess