thinking also abt shane post-outing having to relearn how to be a guy in public who isn't performing straightness 24/7 and just. being SO bad at casual. like his whole personality pre-fanmail was "polite but distant, disciplined, unknowable" and now he doesn't have to hide anything and he has NO IDEA what a normal amount of hand-on-ilya's-back is in public. :') which is sorta sweet but also oaughhhh
so he’s just standing in a grocery store like: is 2 minutes of hand on ilya’s back normal or is that insane. is that nothing. is that divorce behavior. & then two aisles later he’s just absentmindedly mouthing at ilya’s throat in the cereal section like they’re back in a marriott at 1am and someone’s uber is outside in six minutes and they r running out of time again even though they’re not
every instinct he has for affection....finite & filthy...bc that's all they ever had. his body doesn't know what to do with the surplus lol (let's all cry). thus no in btwn.
crucially ilya finds this hilarious & hot and does not comment. yay shane being unhinged plsplsplspls
