#thinking thoughts recently

came to the realization that the gradual decline of both selessi and kosukyo’s relationships are both characters in said relationships slowly coming to the realization that each person in the relationship is too stubbornly set in their ways and focused on their own goals for either of them to ever be able to meet in the middle and continue the relationship in the long term, but while selessi is a more painful, heartachey decline that leaves them both feeling unresolved and silently yearning for the other for god knows how many years, for kosukyo, it causes them to grow to hate each other and focus so much on negatives which culminates in very violent ways that leave them both hurt in monumentally different manners

I finished disco elysium more than 18 months ago, yet still every day I think about that game. Literally no other work has ever stuck hooked into my neurons like that, and I doubt anything in the future will. It’s crazy to me that I picked it up on a whim and now my life is permanently altered for the better

the more i think about it the likelier it is that’s i’m a non-binary guy. because i don’t feel like a guy in the same way other guys do because i really acknowledge my upbringing as a girl in society and how that affects me today. i’m not a man i’m the same way cis men are, and i understand that other trans men do feel like they’re men in the same way cis men are, i just don’t. but i’ll have to sit with that term for a lot longer to really see if that’s how i feel